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2007-10-28T01:18:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED OF THIS BLOG! SO I'M MOVING!

http://mynameispeiru.blogspot.com

BUT TAGGING IS STILL HERE! visit me often! hahas!

2007-10-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

okay, yesterday was school. received another prezzie from laura and kiara, shall post pictures on another day. and ruishan gave me too ! so fun! had my celebration too, a mango cake. *yummy* !!

love kiara, laura and rui shan!
after that, distributed my donuts to kai heng, zqq, arisa, hon ren, cynthia and joel. everybody was eyeing my donuts. i was the paragon of the school for 1 day :)

or rather, the box of donuts was the paragon.

after, i sneaked out of school to long john. had lunch with hon ren and clique.
then it was donut delivery to Singapore Poly!

gave kai wei the donuts at 2.30pm. met patrick at he mrt station first. also gave tadmizie and jing kai a share. haha!

and caiying was so blur. she realised she missed her tutorial after 1 hour of lesson which is supposed to span over 2 hours! haha! so i accompanied her until 4pm, but slightly before i had a chat with yixian! haha! then then it was patrick's lecture

PATRICK WAS A BIG LIAR~ !! he said his friends were always sleeping in lecture. but when i went, his friends teased me *shy* haha! NO LA, I WAS NEVER SHY. so i learned what is creep. the 4 different ways to reduce creep resistance or something like that, what solid solution hardening, increase melting point. WHATEVER LA. IF I WAS CUT OUT FOR IT, I WOULDN BE IN JC NOW.

oh and i met farah! at 5pm and had a little chat! went to consumer probe with kai wei and got 10 surveys to do! then then went to ginny's house to chat, and talk and wached channel U at 12 am just to see MY KAI WEI and yu jin and the clique in channel U 'hey gorgeous' !

my kai wei is so cute. =)

2007-10-21T23:12:00.001+08:00

NYDC FUN ! dinner!

arisa 's feeding me! lovey dovey!
DON'T ALLOW MY MONKEY TO EAT ANYTHING mmmm....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!~ YAY! I'M 18 !

so i was previously from kai wei's house in malaysia, her family was so nice, they brought me for breakfast, i had meatball noodle before they fetched me to malaysia custom and i went back to singapore at 2pm!

met ginny at 3pm! heh, and we went to far east for a little shopping and ginny bought her shoe for deepavali! :)

went to buy donuts for so many people first and then it was NYDC with ginny and arisa~!

arisa and i with the bear ! =)

this is ginny! so comel! so cute!

3 of us :) NYDC loves <3>
the donuts for kiara, ruishan, laura, joshua, patrick, jing kai, ginny, arisa, me, alvin, farah and 1 more random person! haha
this 6 is for kai wei and her clique~ !
this 6 is for our wildcats group! hope hon ren, kai heng, zhi qiang, arisa, joel and cynthia do well for their a levels!

my lasagna:)
gin's meatball pasta!

arisa's hawaiian baked rice!

she's loved by me... and all the above, so heavenly, the food and the cake, is all treat from ginny and arisa. they're so part of my life =)

PRESENT TIME !!! WAHAHAH!!
A TUBE TOP from kai wei, jing jing and jia min!! MY FOREVER LOVED SISTERS!

fROM MY COUSIN I LOVE MOST! :) thanks shuai!

FROM zhi qiang, jeslyn and kai heng!!!

FROM hon ren :)

i love my birthday !
thanks to ginny, farah, arisa, hon ren, kai heng, zhiqiang, kai wei, jing jing, jiamin, yixian, koon, jessica, nerissa, patrick, jing kai, kiara, alvin, pui kheng, fynette, AND MY COUSIN SHUAI! thanks for remembering my birthday and

especially to ginny and to arisa for today for making it so special :) next birthday i swear i'll make u point and i buy trend in place=)

and my cousin for beig so sweet just to call to say happy birthday with so much sincerity. my cousin is so sweet.

and kai wei for being one of the firsts and he last to wish me happy birthday.

and patrick for offering to tie himself up in a ribbon and giving himself to me! though it was just a suggestion. LOL

I HAVE THE SWEETEST FRIENDS AND COUSIN EVER. =)

2007-10-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

went to malaysia with my cousin, and kai wei today! the day before went to kaiwei's house in s'pore to sleep for the night and departed singapore to malaysia! changed ringgit $100 for RM$ 232 WITH MY RELATIVE. good price eh??! haha! yay!

alvin rented a car, one big car, but in the end we found out that patrick got his mercedes benz because his mum wasn't using ! so cool right. I GOT FRIENDS WHO DRIVE AND WHO CAN DRIVE ME AROUND! i love them! hmm, what a day to start with my birthday.

this is my kai wei and cousin walking into the pic, in s'pore immigration in alvin's car! =)

WE'RE ON OUR WAY TO JUSTCO! ALVIN FETCHED US THERE!
in this car.. haha! the right side is zhong lin! and the driver is alvin! this is my cousin and i! we went for ba kut teh for breakfast! one whole claypot costs only 30 RM for 5 people! ! it's alvin's relative's place. cheap food on discount! haha! at 12pm!
then alvin drove us to JUSTCO. JB's biggest shopping centre! and kai wei and i fooling around in m'sia's TOPMAN. HAHA! it's my bitrthday! 21ST!
IT'S ME AGAIN!

cousin and i, see, he cupped his breasts !! in front of la senza! both of us no shame. haha!
cousin dave and i in halloween hats! in toy'rus!

after bah kut teh, we went to eat SECRET RECIPE CAUSE I WANNA EAT MY CAKE! thus, at around 1pm, we had it

alvin and my chocolate indulgence. patrick and kai wei ate chocolate brownie with ice cream! and alvin ate a brownie too! my cousin kept eating. haix! I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SHOP! walao, GUYS! THIS PATRICK'S MERZ and the family bulkier one behind is what alvin rented! haha! cool man. went to kaiwei's house for a while cause her daddy's looking for her!!

the house one the left is kai wei's house. i swear her house is so big.. heh. and i'm proud to say i stayed there! heh. haha!

this is patrick's car! so handsome!! walao!! dammit. he's a bachelor, anybody wants??
PARTICK IS SO MAN! this is what happened, kai wei and i went to city square to shop right after secret recipe, in less than 1 hour, the guys says they wanna go eat again! what the hellll....!! the guys eat so much!

so he waited for me and kai wei for around 20 -30 mins, when the other 3, alvin and shuai and zhong lin went for the nasi lemak place first, while patrick is the only guy waiting for us. me and kai wei didn';t know the others left to wait by himself, we took advantage of the last few minutes we have to buy each a pair of shorts and my cousin bought me a pair of shoes! my birthday prezzie!

my cousin is so man! i say i want this, then he just paid for it. WOO HOO!! haha!

then after buying our stuff, we set off for he nasi lemak place. patrick is SO MAN! kai wei and i were in the car park, we saw the car. then patrick commanded us, he said, " both of u go inside first ( the lift area where there is air condition) here (carpark) is very hot... "

then he passed me my shoes that he carried for me, and say, " u both wait here, i go pay for the carparking"

SO MAN LAH! haha! so commanding!

patrick looks like this, he has a really charming dimple on the sides of his face ( that's his only attractive part, well, i don't wanna lie to you) but recently he's having some pimples on his face, but that can be removed, don't worry girls, if u like just call me k? then i'll introduce u to him. PATRICK, FREE ADVERTISING, ONCE U READ THIS, DON'T FORGET TO SMS ME AND SAY THANK YOU! HAHA!
yay! i'm sorry i left kai wei in the back seat because when i went back to sit with kai wei, patrick scolded me and said, " WEI ! THINK I'M YOUR CHAUFFER ARH! "

so i climbed back to the front seat to continue sitting with pat.. SO PARTICULAR I SWEAR. wei patrick, friend friend mah, ! haha! 2 days later i give u donuts to make it up for it :) u're so cute!

went for nasi lemak, and it's by the sea side, pat says, " hey, your birthday bring u to such a romantic place, happy?"

"of course! " heh, and here's my kai wei! good scenery right?

patrick behaving like a tour guide

at the place... wah, patrick like commanding figure, scary..

my cousin! so cute!
here's our stingray!
here's us with our nasi lemak and my cousin..and patrick
patrick again and my cousin! WHY ARE THEY STEALING MY LIMELIGHT???!! WHY NO PICTURES OF ME??!!
finally we're going home at 7.30 pm. it's early. i don't wanna go back yet, but pat and kai wei says it's not safe to go home late. haix.. there goes my malaysia trip. no more shopping, no karaoke. shuai, alvin and zhong lin has already left in their car, while patrick sends me and kai wei back to kai wei's house. hmm.. well. i slept very quickly after i reach kai wei's house. i didn't shower. =) i slept peacefully. i'm happy. THANKS A BUNCH PEOPLE. u made my day so fun! and FILLING...

2007-10-19T00:21:00.000+08:00

CLOGGED 3 hours of CIP wiht ginny! did a shoddy job in cleaning the tables and chairs of YJC in lt4 and 3. WOW! haha! so fun!

after that was consumer probe data entry. so cool. $$$ coming into my pocket! heh heh! yay!
missed jing jing's birthday celebration but nevermind, i'll shall find time for her someday :)
bought her a burberry perfume!
hope she likes it heh.

after work, went to pay for my top i bought online. so nice! i wanna buy another one!
yay! i love shopping. I LOVE MY TUBE TOPS =)
LOVE BIRTHDAYS.

hmm, this sunday is my bithday, but i don't want those taking a levels to come. i want them to study for a levels. birthdays are just another day of celebration. a level is a coureer determinant. =) of course it' more important!

LOOKING FORWARD TO SATURDAYS WHERE SHOPPING BEGINS.
hopefully that's when my sorrow ends
wei loong called to ask me what happened. sorry, but i was with ginny! i can't multitask. ahLL MEET UP AND DISCUSS IN DETAILS. haha!

2007-10-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday hon ren, arisa, zq, traces, jie ying, nat, joel and yi guang all of us went to watch resident evil 3. it scared the hell out of me. hon ren held my hands throughout, but i know that pair of hands no longer belonged to me. after that was ajisen, all i ate was sushi while hr and zq ate crayfish ramen. then arcade was daytona with zq, arisa, and honren.

once again, hon ren walked out of my life, and i went to ginny's place to stay.

today, accompaned ginny to consumer probe. then shopping with kai wei. then chilled in th night with kai wei lili and alvin.

can't stop thinking bout him. it's a chore. it's torture. its' not what i want.
but i won't force you baby. i'll give you time. i hope for nothing in return. i hope for nothing. i just want you to do well in a levels. we wasted alot of time. but with you, time wasn't wasted.
regret came too late.

2007-10-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

i asked myself, why do i cry? i cannot answer that, but i don't know, i think i've hurt hon ren. i 've done him wrong. i made him lose faith. i thought it was his fault, but i think it's a little too late for realising my misunderstandings towards me.

his consideration, capacity to forgive and forget towards me was so great i hate myself for not being able to realise it earlier. hon ren had done so much, he had put away his dignity and ego, to pacify me, to make me happy, he'd do anything to satisfy me, but all i did was to just deny his efforts to change his attitude.

here's a list of what i've done wrong:
i've shouted at him in front of everybody, i didn't talk to him when he tried to communicate with me, i left him alone most of the time and rather give my attention to my friends, when he asked me to teach him piano i said he was to slow to learn and i taught kai heng instead, i stopped writing cards for him when i thought he didn't deserve me, i stopped calling him sometime ago, i keep hanging up on him, i purposely don't wanna pick up his call, and so many other things i expeced him to do but i never realise that he had his way of expressing himself.

ginny and arisa told me hon ren was different, he didn't grow under that kind of environment where friends were so willing to give, he dosen't know how to say thanks. but i still required him to do that. he had said "thank you" just by showing me attention everyday, he's a kind of an introvert, but not really one, he's just, how do i put it, different.

i realised i loved him more than i do. previously i was telling everyone how good i felt about ditching hon ren, but it was all because it lied on the assumption that he still had feelings for me. but that very fateful day, i forced it out of him, he said that it somehow faded, my whole world began crushing down on me, i was suicidal, i have nothing to live for. it took me 7 months to realise i loved him more than i think i do.

if i ever do anything stupid, please understand it takes me an even higher level of courage to do it.

to honren : if we were sill together, we'd be 8 months :)

2007-10-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

hon ren, he said it.

crying, ginny and arisa came all the way down to meet me. i cried about 200 sheets of tissue since last night. (konon crying counted by number of tissue paper.. haha!) ginny and arisa was so sweet, they bought me winnie the pooh tissue! and as i poured out everything, they wiped it off, more efficient than a car wiper i swear. :) i didn't blame honren, when i thought i didn't need him, i think i hurt him. i don't know, but maybe we're just not meant to be. :)

he was there for me still, even though he caused my pain. i don't know. passed him a book of our past. my only regret was not establishing better memories of us. i took it down by quarreliing too much.

i got a big treat from ginny and arisa too, cookies and cream and chocolaty ice cream on waffles in gelare. THANKS GINNY AND ARISA, I LOVE YOU GUYS. thanks so much for being there, i really appreciate it alot.

when it was 6pm, i decided to go ginny's house, i don't think i wanna be alone for now.

hon ren, please do well for you a levels, i've promised you your treat :)

arisa, stop watching japanese shows too! u got a levels !! :)

ginny, continue to enjoy life! haha!!

now in ginny's house, good hospitality, chocolate cake, cable, aircon, internet... company(what i need most)
i don't know how i'm gonna adapt myself now, but it's different without hon ren. it's really difficult. :(

2007-10-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a torture, when truth dawned upon me, i just felt like it was the end of my world. how i wished i never knew.

THE PAINFUL TRUTH.
baby, anybody else could treat me anyway they want, but the last thing i hope was to hear that from you-- our love was so shallow, it couldn't withstand anything. nothing.

i thought we could change things. but yesterday proved that maybe a breakup was better that way. i'd miss the way we wake up in each other arms, saying "i love you honey" and i would reply " i love bunny"

THOSE WERE THE DAYS.
but we lost it along the way. and we couldn't go back in time to retrieve. now, i would dream every night for a miracle to happen, because i miss those times, won't you?

once upon a time, infatuation turned into love,
the countdown of 2007, swimming in jurong east, eating poor man's food, macdonald's for supper, rocket stunt to pacify me, the tango stunt, carrying me for 10 seconds, monopoly until imake sure i win, poker at 3am, crash dash until dawn of the next day, chicken rice for 7 consecutive days, bargaining with western food auntie, calling you from 12pm till 7pm, shopping, eating in bugis hawker centre, the roses, the cards, the anniversaries, banquet, cycling, walk to 888, there's so many things, i would never forget.

u can wash it all away in a week, i can't.
sorry bunny, for all the things i never did right.

but u're forever my bunny, my couchpotato, my fisherboy.
u'll be one of the chapters in my life, a big one. :)
i love you :)

2007-10-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

TIME IS TICKING AWAY,

MY HOPES ARE SWAYED.

not even a glimpse of hope.

and i so hate the word "SUPERANNUATED" -- it sounds harmless, but it has cause much anxiety and had determined the fate of many.

too bad, i am a possible victim.

-already under the mercy of procrastination

2007-10-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

single again ):)

i guess i need the time to concentrate. i can't muti task. i want to experience the life of being single again. KAI WEI, BELIEVE ME, I MEAN IT!

even if he was rich, handsome and smart. I DON'T WANT ANYBODY ! I REPEAT, I DON'T WANT ANYBODY!

2007-10-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

i've been studying real hard today. and i felt so pathetic and lonely having to study alone. i can't join ginny in bishan as much as i want to, and i was glad ginny called just to say she missed me. i'm glad some people remembered me when i needed it most.

studying sucks, it just robbed me of my social life.

and when i felt most empty at any point of time, i miss my kai wei, jia min and jing jing. i just told kai wei to bring me to malaysia to eat secret recipe i craved so much for. she agreed immediately. it's this kind of 24/7 attention that i get from her which made me experience euphoria almost every second of my life. it's this kind of friendship which touched me so much i'd do anything for them. and it's just them who makes me feel special forever. it's their caring gestures which makes me wanna cry in disbelief that i have such besties. i have an identity because i have them :)

this year, i've again, met some really nice people who also made a difference in my life. we've come together by fate, and have become best friends because they're so willing to give. they're the ones who would deliver doughnuts right before your door steps when u want it the most. even when it wasn't asked for, they would just go to your house, giving you a surprise and encourage you to study hard for coming exams. whenever u feel down, they would listen so attentively and make sure u feel okay subsequently. they're the ones who makes my school life so entertaining i wouldn't feel like leaving school as much as i want to.

i cry in tears of joy.

in the middle of the night when i feel angry with fear and regret that i havent studied enough, i anticipate and look forward to plans we're supposed to carry out after my promotional exams-- going to arisa's house with ginny to encourage her as well as making her jealous our exams are over, going to secret recipe with kai wei and to ask pat to tag along, working again with my cousin whom i love so much and the girls, shopping spree, ramen ten with classmates competing against one another to finish up a bowl of ramen of maximum chilli strength, chilling in coffee bean making sure we're never able to step in it ever again....

but i'm suffering now, bombarding 8 months of knowledge in 2 nights is not working. it's really tough. my memory capacity could only hold so much. the more i studied, the shallower i think i've become. i'm like a thumbdrive of 512 MB, i didn't have alot of memory to begin with, all files are stored temporarily, and though 512 seemed quite alot, but actually it's really little. though 512 is a big number, but it's nothing compared to a 4 GB storage device whom my other friends probably has that kind of memory space. i 'm thinking i'm dumb as time goes by. omg. i wasn't stupid to start with i'm sure. but i think i'm brimming up to the maximum and i 'm not ready for it. IT'S FUCKING PROMOTIONAL EXAMS AGAIN.

KAI WEI , I MISS YOU. DAVE, I MISS YOU.

2007-10-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

SINGAPOREANS ARE SO IRRITABLE, 'KIASU' would be an underestimationof their outrageous behavior. see how little space there's left for me once they realise i'm a YJ student and i would alight at Yishun station? SEE HOW LITTLE SPACE THERE IS TO AT LEAST ALLOW ME TO PUT BOTH FEET ON THE GROUND??

bloody brainless commuters. and as i got up, the guy, on the right, to vie for that one seat with the lady, he rammed into me as i got up to walk toward the door. UTTER STUPIDITY! how can i get off if he blocks my way right?

argh....just spoils my mood

after school was MAC's with HR. :) 'xian2 qi4' hahas! and he gave me his medal for winnning runner up for badminton tournament for which he didn't really win it at all.. oh, that's another long story..

now i shall announce, my blog will be officially down until 12 october. WAIT FOR MY GOOD NEWS! hope i won't lament which i most probably will. KAI WEI, see you after 12! patrick, no more late night MSN. Alvin & shuai, shall see you at work again!

2007-10-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

my day sucked. don't talk about it. tossed and turned throughout the whole night. felt nauseating. CAN'T SLEEP ! and so, i woke up at 6.30 am, but there's still this dopey feeling, and the sky's still dark, so i shall wait till 6.45am till people calls me up. in the end only patrick managed to call me at 6.46AM. so being the ungrateful kid i am, i sent him a sms at 6.45 am sharp labelling him a pig. but felt bad after wards because he did call me =)

THANKS! STAR FISH! PRAWN KING!

and gp paper was hell of a torture. take pity on me. i was doing fine for the first 1 hr 30mins, but the next 90 mins, i was practically not thinking straight, i was so sleepy and i gave myself a 5 min nap. TIME WASTED I KNOW. but can't help it.

after the ordeal, kiara, laura and i went to eat in NP.. then kiara came my house. oh god. i'm so tired. and chatted with pat and jing kai and some other friends till late night, before i get my deserving sleep.

food galore.

hopefully today's the day when i can sleep very well, sleep very well, sleep very well, today's the day i can sleep very well, SLEEP VERY WELL.

2007-10-01T23:31:00.001+08:00

TOMORROW IS MY GP PAPER, AND SEE WHAT AM I DOING NOW??!! HAHAS!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS..... LALALA~~~

and this is a stupid clip done by ALVIN LIM, starring the forever lovable PEIRU and ALVIN.

HAHAHAHAHAAA!!! WE'RE SO LAME OKAY..

TRYING to cover up half of our faces with this hand sign, and it's working!

REST IN PEACE ... ahas!
RESPECT ! RESPECT FOR THE DEAD....
trying out our photo taking skills, so we did alot of cam whoring
i think this should be taken by me since it's so nice... right
MY PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS ARE INVINCIBLE!!

acting to be scared... <-- all thanks to patrick for sending me this super evil song, it haunted me throughout the whole of last night, no kidding

hahs!! PATRICK NG, IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!

utterly dismayed
emo-ing..
i'm a jail bird, as you can see, more than half of the pictures, the lime light is on me.. THANK YOU THANK YOU...
KAI WEI AND ALVIN ,taken by me too ! :) best photographer of the year

look at how happy they were

ALVIN ACT CUTE! i suggested he go for a sex change since he's getting along so well with us
I'M ON CANDID CAMERA!
i'm trying out yu jin's stunt... AS WE CAME ACROSS THE TOPIC THAT KAI WEI HAD PLUMP CHEEKS! HAHS!

CANDID CAMERA SEEMS TO LIKE ME ...

okay, so i chatted with my buddies from 4pm till 10 pm. there goes my weekends and study time. as much as i wanna concentrate, i can't just forgo times that cannot be retrieved with these people. cause they're special. and i know they will never forget tonight, as marked exceptional by my new signature song, -- LEI.. " wo bi shang yan jing bu neng ru shui!!!!" HAHAAS!!!

and thanks FARAH for wishing me for tomorrow's exam, i know i will try my best given your blessings :)

and there, we saw shuai . he's so nice today. it's so unlike him. when i was trying to poke my ear stick into my earhole which has closed up, i screamed in pain as shuai patted me at the back of my neck. HE'S SO GENTLE TODAY LAH!! HAAS! and after we sms-ed, he smsed," night la, love ya, bye"

OMG, I THINK HE KENA POSSESSED. HAHAS! it's so unlike my couzzie ! normally this would be his reply, " good night ass hole"

NOW U KNOW HOW DIFFERENT HE WAS. HAHS!

2007-10-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

jokes i ripped of http://jokediary.com/2007/09/100-kisses.html

Dear Sweetheart,
I can't send my salary this month, so I am sending 100 kisses.
You are my sweetheart
Your husband
Allen

*-----------------------------------------------------------*

His wife replied back after some days to her husband:
Dearest sweetheart,
Thanks for your 100 kisses, I am sending the expenses details.
1. The Milk man agreed on 2 kisses for one month's milk.
2. The electricity man only agreed after 7 kisses.
3. Your house owner is coming every day and taking two or three kisses instead of the rent.
4. Supermarket owner did not accept kisses only, so I have given him some other items...........
5. Other expenses 40 kisses

Please don't worry for me, I have a remaining balance of 35 kisses and I hope I can complete the month using this balance. Shall I plan same way for next months, Please Advise !!!
Your Sweet Heart

http://jokediary.com/2007/07/12-ways-to-suan-person-sarcastic.html
http://jokediary.com/2007/07/mommy-what-is-courting.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/05/trial.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/05/big-boys.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/04/3-guys-in-heaven.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/04/sense-of-humor.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/03/attitude.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/03/sex-drive.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/02/blow-job.html

http://jokediary.com/2007/02/wife-mailman.html

http://jokediary.com/2006/12/young-wife.html

http://jokediary.com/2006/09/soliciting.html

2007-10-01T13:41:00.001+08:00

"Going Crazy"

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

- ginny sent this to me, to remind me of him :) he's beautiful-

2007-09-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

i need study companions.

& i wished that thing never happened,

& i would be the happiest girl on earth,

now having a movie marathon on a cozy sofa,

popping popcorns, holding your hand until the next morning,

make breakfast together,

praising each other's beauty,

showering of unconditional love...

but somehow, we lost it, and now,

i'm still waiting for you.

2007-09-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

he's my new fling :)

he's a magnet. and i'm glad i don't always see him.

love traps too deadly.

i'll hence, keep my boundaries shallow.

2007-09-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

it seems to be the norm to go for detention on saturdays, and luckily today's starts at 9am. so i wasnt' late !!! and i brought my brother's love to school. it's so cute i stole it from the side f his bed just for a day.

oh and too bad nerissa, it's not mine. hhas! i know u love it.

dosent' it look like keith? <-- also kena detention STUPID KEITH WILL PAY FOR THIS FOR CLOSING MY CUTIE IN HIS STUPID FILE. poor thing, it's face is all squashed up. ='(

NOW HE'S ANGRY.. keith, u watch out!! hahas! (taken by nerissa's phone)

taken by my phone which has no flash.... LOUSY RIGHT..

OKAY, just as i was telling them the riddle bout the grass cutter, there's really a grass cutter in school. effin' hilarious lah!HAHAAS~!!

After school, we're supposed to have lunch. but i think keith passed on all his bad luck to me.. and thus, while we(nerissa, benjamin, keith, natasha and i), were walking to north point, there's this lady in distress, calling out for us to look at this black slippery thing.

OMG!~ SNAKE!!~~~~~~~~
so heroes of the day:benjamin and keith. THEY called the police okay, and while waiting, we had to keep track of the snake so that i dosent' run away. people starts to gather around once the police came, and since our job is done, we SERIOUSLY HAVE TO GO EAT.. we waited for ther inefficient police force for bout 30 mins.. ikmagine if it was a python, we would have been gobbled up, in the case that if the snake had been deprived of it's food for a few days.

thus, we went to northpoint, and keith and i made a bet -- to eat up a bowl of extra spicy pork ramen. so i added super alot of chili powder in his but he's gentlemanly enough to put less. and the loser has to treat the winner drinks. ended up nerissa and ben also wanted to join in, so we waited :) SO FUN!

BUT THE RAMEN CAME OUT NOT SPICY AT ALL. so it's a deal to go ramen ten one day to try the one of 7 chilli strength... hahas!

it's this! hahas! and i think it looked so nice, the lady sitting next to us asked us where we bought the noodle from. THEREAFTER, we bought bubble tea, AGAIN, another person came up to ask us where did we get th bubble tea!
AGAIN, I FORGOT WHAT HAPPENED, BUT ANOTHER PERSON ASKED US ANOTHER THING. i swear we're so approachable ... hahahas!!

comtemplated to go orchard to study. by this time, it's left with keith, ben, nerisssa and i.

but in the end, we went to nerissa's house! they so bad lar!! if u're my friend i shall tell you the story some time later hahas!

ohohoh! and when we reached there, i played piano, play with nerissa's 2 dogs, joked, chit chat, tour her room, went to the attic to print out new timetable.. did almost everything but study.

ben and i stayed for dinner, which was held outside their house. there's so much food, caesar salad, chicken with stuffed ham, clam chowder with added mushroom, asparagus, garlic chicken with melted cheese, sliced beef, sausages and cheesesticks!!!!

and this is nerissa the kuku.. (having dinner in her garden) this is ben. see, our candle for our candle light dinner. and nerissa just stuffed benjamin with alot of food. i 'm not surprised if i see ben fat tomorrow

hahas! this was the day. sad that keith didn't stay cause there's one more person to finish the food. LOL. andi swear nerissa's house's kois are 4 times bigger than the school's one really.

i had a really fun day.

2007-09-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

okay, i enjoyed myself so much i didn't regret forgoing one day for the sake of extreme fun. first it was going to town to meet kaiwei and her friends-- yu jin and cai ying. so we played indian poker, whoever loses has to do some forfeit. yu jin was utterly down on luck, so she was made to sing songs loud enough to make the next few tables turn their heads over, do 10 funny faces and to ask for salt water from the starbucks people.

ONE OF YU JIN'S PUNISHMENT-- stupid faces photo shots! hahas!

spat into yu jin's blouse because i couldn't contain my laughter!! and i was drinking my mocha!! DON'T TELL ME FUNNY THINGS WHENEVER I'M DRINKING!! HAHAS!!!

that was not all, next, we played "0-0-7-bang-ahh!!" game. cai ying lost this time and we asked her to go to the counter and to ask for the guys's number. she said"can i have you number?"

he replied, " my number?? my number?? MY NUMBER???!!! " IT WAS TOTALLY HILARIOUS LAH! ahahaahhas!! he had to confirm so many times. HE'S GOT LOW SELF ESTEEM. haahs! and in the end he asked, " u want my number or starbucks's number?" HAHAHAHAS!! but i 'm sure we made his day because after that he kept smiling to himself the whole time and he ever greeted us with a super warm " GOOD BYE! " while we left starbucks, and caiying ensconced herself beside me and buried her face in ultimate chagrin. haha!

because she didn't fulfil her task given to her, the guy didn't give her his number, so she had to eat a snicker bar off the poster!

on our way to somwhere we haven t decided! LOL...
bored to death waiting for yu jin and kai wei to answer my lame questions! hahas! these 2 beauties! thereafter, we really dont' know what to do, thus we went to vivo in a car! :)

while in the car, i had to entertain people, so i asked them some lame questions (cakes, name, goldfish, macdonalds, ikan bilis...) heh, so funny!!

contributed by Keith & farah!!! :) thanks guys! muacks!!

after eating carls' jr with them, kai wei and i went to candy empire! and there's a packet of M&M's which glows in the dark!!! i shall take picture of it sometime as it belongs to my bro's girlfriend now.. LOL.

--awaiting for more videos and pictures--

and though WL didn't call, but i was glad he remembered my existence :) oh lord, it's really appreciated.

2007-09-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

okay class, this is called a phallic
phallic symbolismisn it the other way round?? kiara is getting all her facts wrong, i'm failing her for this subject
a mouse with real hair as whiskers(creator-- kiara)

after math and phallic symbolism class( during math) i bought carrots to eat.. heh .. crazy right, it's RAW carrots...

yyyeeww..!! i took a bite, it's raw veggie..

and so u see, how JC students are wasting their time away comtemplating 5 mins before considering the pros and cons of eating carrots RAW, spending lesson time moulding the kneeadable erasers into all kinds of funny stuff...

but i was quite productive though, i stayed back in school with kiara till 6.30 pm plus to finish up our assignments

sense of achievement.

2007-09-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

went for my MRI scan today, omg, without subsidy from govt is $600 ! after was $252 only, PHEW... and i'm so "suay", I WAS LATE FOR MY APPOINTMENT SUPPOSEDLY AT 11AM.. but i reached 35 mins later, and their policy is not to entertain late comers after 30 mins because each scan needs at least 45 mins thus my late goin will have a snowball effect on the others. but the doctor was so kind, he decided to do overtime for another 45 mins, JUST FOR ME. :) so i shall do my MRI scan at 6.30pm :)

in the meantime, of course i'm not born a loner, i have friends! i went into kai wei's and patrick's lecture and helped them copy notes while they sleep. i ought to take the exams for them too!

after that, went to bugis with kaiwei, hazel and yu jin (the hottie) to shop for presents for their friends!! thus, we walked around... we settled down in MOS burger after such a long walk, but the hopsital called me to go back there to have my MRI. so i can't eat my hot fudge i bought from macdonalds, cant drink my milk tea from MOS burger, can't eat my food kai wei voluntarily bought for me and i patheticall have to rush from bugis to alexandra hospital situated along the roads of queensway... i can't even tell those girls my joke that i prepared!! dammit..

while awaiting for my MRI, i'm apprehensive bout it!

i have to get myself draped in this piece of obsolete robe! so uncool! but the hospital gave this rag an attractive name -- kimono. COME ON LAH? WHICH PART OF IT LOOK LIKE?? hahaas!! nevertheless, i was so amused with this kinda thing, i mean how many people get to wear this 'kimono"?? LOL
and believe it or not, i got to take out my bra even, i feel so barren and vulnerable. because i've got only my panties on.. hahs!!

and the doctor who stayed overtime JUST FOR ME, was so cute! the way he talked to me was so gentle and subtle. he ws like " erm... u have to take out your hair band ............. and errrr........ you can only have your........... err.. under.. wear on" SOOO CUTE!!!! he looks like he's in his twenties, such a good catch. and he wears spects, making him look like a 'mama's boy' kinda man who graduated with first class honours in university.

in the MRI scanning room, IT'S BLOODY COOL!! i had to lie on this bed, and my bed was constantly manipulated to go into this really huge machine. that cute doctor first handed me a cap to put my hair inside, he 's like, " you can wear this cap on... " then he passed me a pair of ear plugs " and because the machine might giv out funny noises, this ear plugs will be very useful.." and then " you have to put your left leg here, and your right leg there..." so cute!!!

omg.. i swear i would steal him home, i wanna bring that doctor home!

what shocked me most when he asked me " errr, which radio channel would you prefer?"

I WAS LIKE " HUH? RADIO ?"

"YUP, IT'S TO ENTERTAIN YOU DURING THIS 45 MINS :)"

then i thought --- could you entertain me instead, can we do without the radio??

HAHAHAHAASSS!!!!

anyway, alexandra hospital facilities was so good lah i swear-- cute doctors, staff with super friendly disposition, radio to entertain... etc. quickly after, ginny gave me a call to ask how was it. :) thanks ginny! and i bought card boxes which costs 90 cents each and bought 2 for ginny as she wanted it too! hahas!

--the end---

2007-09-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

hon ren , i'm sorry, but

WEI LOONG, I MISS YOU :(

AND THE CORKSCREW JUST KEPT TURNING, EVEN UNTIL NOW. i no longer bleed, however, your very last words still resound and resonates in my head...

i never even get to see the last of your back, and finally when i did, it was really heart wrenching.

everynight, i just hoped, hopelessly that one day, you would comebacktome

2007-09-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

it's my birthday again!!! hahas!

no la, she's the birthday girl today, okay, recently there's alot of birthday i know..

scandalous... this josh and eh hem...

it's moon cake festival, so YJC treats the school with halal moon cakes!
did a little cam whoring at night, and this will be how i look like if i changed my parting..
originally, but my hair sucks cause i didn't comb it at all, just showered. LOL! still thinking if i should change my parting to the left, oh well, i got no time for it yet...

kai wei just asked me if i wanna go celebrate moon cake festival, taking lanterns walking around, play with candles and sparklers but i totally rejected her because i was so tired! but i realised tomorrow i need not go to school because i have a medical appointment with alexandra! HAHA!! but i studied at home, see, i'm disciplined

but i slept after reading 2 paragraph... HAHA!!!

2007-09-25T00:07:00.000+08:00

wretched, my most honest confessions.

malaise creeps up onto me, as yesterday's images blew up so vividly ,

those words he blurted came like a darting lance i could never avoid, it went and injured my heart, thrusting it so deep within me and you pierced into me like a corkscrew, widening the open wound and u know i'm in pain, but you just allow me suffer, and i wonder if that was the intention so i'll forget about you.

but i'm telling you your plan backfired, instead, it made me realise that, my emotions are genuine. it didn't take me 3 years to realise, but it took you 3 years to fathom the making of women. what fails you most is your inability to see who's true.

i'm not waiting for you. but just to let you know, u're my only one. and it will always be.

2007-09-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

WOW ! there's a crowd, so let's check it out!
OH ! it's health week ! hmm... lets see, stress, relaxation exercises, stories!!

NEW STORY OF THE HARE AND TORTISE , wow that's interesting!

oh, oh ! and there' a continuation of it!

oh!! the steps to control stress, the hand work is nice, i wonder who did it, lets check it out ..

OH ! IT'S DONE BY : PEIRU AND JIAYU! both of them are so creative i swear, and PEIRU, sounds familar.. OH ! SHE'S THAT SUPER SMART AND PRETTY GIRL FROM CLASS 130 that takes entirely arts subjects??

eh, wait, isn't PEIRU my name??? hahas!!!!!!

here's the owner! so this is what Mrs George made jia yu and i do, i did it for 2 whole days, there goes my studying time , :( ... i didnt'; do anything else. WALAU WEI..

PEPPER LUNCH in amk hub! we're celebrating ZQ 's b'day~!

okay, this is not the whole group.. ginny, hon ren and joel is missing from the pic!

US again!

after we finished the cake, kai heng drew stuff like that, the smiley face and tamagotchi character..

the group!

in pepper lunch, i also saw Yi Da!! my secondary school classmate! and after, this girl currently in aNderson JC said hi to me! but i'm so sorry i forgot her name. hope she's doing well! =p

neglected studies today, felt so lethargic.. tomorrow will be a better day!

2007-09-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

The person who tagged you : GINNY AND ARISA

The most memorable thing she has done for you :
G - including me into her life!
A- putting herself infront of web cam and entertained me throughout with her countless possession of pooh bears waving their hands at me

The most memorable words she said to you :
G - right now! (can't and never forget)
A - ahh!! i jealous ( whenever i 'm in detention with ginny)

If she becomes your lover, you will?
G & A- it's a extremely difficult choice, either way, i'll be labelled unfaithful. god, help me..HAHA!!

If she is your lover, what improvement/s would you like to see her changing :
G - accept arisa
A - accept ginny HAHAASss!

If she becomes your enemy, you will? IT'LL never be the case :) but i can't guarantee between the two of them... there's always 'rivalry' over me!! hahas!! th're so fun!

The reason why she becomes my enemy? if they got new girlfriends :(

The most desired thing you would like to do for her:
G - make her feel good about herself! (ginny, u're the hottest girl on earth! this is one thing i swear u never knew! )
A - make her wear sleeveless and feel proud bout it!
G&A - BE THERE FOR YOU ALWAYS! just dial 90047027 !!!

Your overall impression of her:
G - she has the most interesting stories to tell! and it's so engaging!
A - a chinese who can't speak chinese and is not a chinese. HAHA!! and may be mentally unsound when infront of the web camm!

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for :
1. my friends to stay happy always!
2. hon ren to be a better boyfriend
3. time to study
4. more bags, accessories, tops, bottoms, shoes...
5. wei loong to be safe and sound :)

How do you think people around you feel about you : she's so emo!

The character you love about yourself : i know how to act cute really well

On the contrary, what do you hate about yourself : i hate MY body. it's bulky

The most ideal person you would like to be with : i met him but he's not mine and never will be.

What do you want to say to your loved ones : I LOVE YOU! sincere, respect.. (like what kai heng always says)

Pass this quiz to 9 friends whom you wish to know how they feel about you :[you think i will let them touch is it?]
1. arisa (my girlfriend! just stole from zq) - - i just back tagged you!
2. Genie from pink dolphin bottle i always buy , and this genie is dark! rare species, can guess who?? -- i just back tagged you!!
3. Farah ( spare some time! relax relax.. haha!
4. kai wei -- that tall tall girl who always can't find a pair of jeans of unreasonable length
5. jing jing who's gonna marry off soon
6. hon ren -- prob have time after his 'A's
7. your mother
8. your father
9. elmo

When was the last time you chatted with #3 : just last week!

What kind of music does #8 like : how i know what your father likes.. -_-''

Does #6 has any siblings : a school dropout brother... cool..

Will you woo #3 : NO!!! i'm straight

How about #7 : NO. I'VE ALREADY TOLD YOU I'M STRAIGHT, and i don't go for people 30 years older

Is #4 single : yes, she's too tall for most guys, and she's a cheena boys magnet..haha!

Surname of #5 : HO, she takes after santa's

Nickname of #1 : blur queen??? mentally impaired? my girlfriend? zq's girlfriend? jap hottie? i dont' know, i always call her arisa...

What's the hobby for #5 : sending me dirty links like "you porn"

Do #5 and 9 get along well : probably yes since my elmo is so lovable.

Where is #3 studying at : singapore poly school of optometry!

Have you tried develop feelings for #1: artificially real, yes.

Where does #9 live : in a street called sesame, with cookie monster, a pair of socks and big bird..

What colour does #4 dislike : none?

Is #1 and 3 best friends : yes. they're wildcats!

Does #7 likes #2 : if that's her mother...

How do you know #2 : through hon ren!

Does #5 owns a pet : nope!!

and there's no questions for #6 i realised. but anyway, i shall create another one

do you love #06 ? yes! i love my bun a million tons! but i hope he does too !

AND WHO SAID IT'S 5 MINS of HER LIFE??? I SPENT 20 ! hahas!!!

2007-09-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

recent purchases... woo hoo !!! okay, i'm broke once again, after repaying half my debts, buying all my stuff, i'm poor again... dammit.. why can't a be born a gold spoon instead of silver?

bought on 13 sept, it's so cute! either carry it on arms and open it up whenu need it on the shoulders! a navy blue halter! okay, my handphone is lousy , it can't bring out the colour..but it's something like the colous of this font..( 21 sept)
a cheapo polo t! (21 sept)

my new love :) had to bargain so much, and i got it $7 cheaper!

don't worry, i'm not preparing for suicide, it's just a pair of red shoes.. a new colour for a change!

hahas!
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despite my shopping spree, i still need a belt, several necklaces of different funky designs, a few more tops and seriously in need of a few pair of shorts and maybe a skinny jeans, hopefully my legs look skinnier! LOL

2007-09-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

after school, i went to play! at 1.30 pm, this is what i did,
- shopping with arisa
- collected kai heng's present for cynthia
- bought my black bag
- met kai wei and yu jin( she's hot kaes)
- went to collect kai wei's pay
- met my cousin and alvin
- went to crepes and we were featured in some media thingy
- we're gonna be sub famous!
- ate and i bought my blue top in cine
- worry what to buy for miki
- arisa accompanied me shopping but she didn't buy anything for miki, felt bad
- checked out this cute guy, ginny's fisherboy in NUM..
- helped shuai which size to buy for a adidas jacket, he bought 'M' and it bloody costs $ 121.30 hahas!! and alvin bought a nike t shirt
- go back to woodlands for class outing

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at 6.30 pm................... i have a class gathering, as you can see, i love my class so much ! okay, maybe i didnt' regret changing school :) the shyness...

poly students low class, still use normal calculator
JC students use Graphic Calculator ! hahas! dave, go home to your mama!!! hahas! (suggested by jia min)

kai wei and jia min , look at our pizza!

tadmizie has become soooo.... macho ! he's good enough to be one of those cute guys in NUM!

alvin just bought that adidas shirt with his pay ! hahas! stop that extravagrant lifestyle! and to think he bought another nike one today... -_-''

my two girlfriends! where's jing jing?? ....

2007-09-19T21:23:00.001+08:00

19 th sept, it's girlfriend outing ! arisa and i held hands, skipping throughout the roads of orchard openly, didn't care bout how others casted disapproving looks, and hissed thinking we're real lesbians, we immersed so deeply in our own worlds and aiming to make 2 people who meant so much to us JEALOUS, all in the name of FUN...... which is, ginny and zhi qiang ~!

restlessness in 'CREPES AND ICE CREAM' outlet! here's her food, whatever it is called i cant recall..my crepe with cookies and cream and a parsimony spread of not-so-value-4-money hershey's chocolate. :)

i'm so gonna dive into my food..

she's so photogenic! haha!

take 2 !

and she bought a new bag !

2007-09-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

farah ransacked my room ... and molested my ELMO... hahas!!!
my mini capsule collection, farah's so amazed

my snake and ladder carpet, farah says it's cool! IT REALLY IS !

OKAY, I GREW MINI CALLS INTO FULL GROWN BALLS! kiara gave it to me on her birthday ! so nice!

its a full picture of the carpet, now what i need is a 50cm x 50 cm x 50 cm big dice, figurines to play it, anyone has?

my farah ! *muacks*

see how happy she is with it, i bet if i'm not looking she'll take it away.. hahas!!!

and we went for a little shopping at woodlands central, and showed farah my dad! hahas!

2007-09-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

late for school. DARN.

never mind, i happily took my time, slept for another 3 hours before i prepare myself for school and rushed through my GP comprehension.

jeremy is so irritating, he claimed he knows how to help me replace the word "betray", thus i gave him the chance to shine...

it took him half a day to tell me the word he's been trying to say was" sabotage"

-_-''

as for hon ren, i haven't given up hope, after all it's been 7 months, i won't say i can't bear to leave but i know i have to. deep down inside me, i was hoping he would change for me and come back to me as a changed being who qualifies my expectations of a boyfriend. i don't think it's too much to ask for.

ginny asked me to remind her of her debt. i'm like huh??!! how to remind??

ginny:

peiru tmr can remind me to give u $3 to pass to farah, cause i owe her money ((: thank you

peiru:

how am u supposed to say it? "ginny, $3"

peiru:

that's so like a bitch, try again

peiru:

err, gin, i think you owe (name) around $3

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

oh, and weiloong's suffered a high fever, poor thing. damn the weather. take care!

2007-09-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

this is what kai heng got for cynthia

i won't deny i am a person of material desires, and i would like my boyfriend to fulfil them, of which, unfortunately, he is unable to provide. my propensity to hanker over such luxuries has overridden my decision to search for a guy who lives up to my expectations as almost none of them qualifies the benchmark i've set for them.

now, i'll officially announce. even without his consent,

-my relationship with him is over.-

2007-09-15T19:59:00.000+08:00

okay, so here's wedding dinner of my dad's cousin...

it's me and my cousin 'DAVE' -- his new name, i think it sucks..

anyway, we cam whored, i think i suck too.. we had so much trouble finding our best shot and i guess none of them came out well.. and here and there another cousin of mine decides to pop up out of nowhere and attempts and successfully spoiled our picture..

to my surprise, to my horror... a YJC teacher happened to be my dad's cousin's wife.... so we're kinda related... that feeling of having a 'relative' IN SCHOOL , sucked too.......

and it seems like it's OUR NIGHT, wherever the bride and groom were we weren't interested ! and i think the bride is hot.. i shall GROOM myself to be as pretty as her too ! my puns are going well tonight..

2007-09-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

kai wei obviously spoiled our picture right!!!?? see how she wasn't looking at the camera??

after work, with DAVE, alvin and kai wei ! we tried this korean grilled chicken, which overtook cafe cartel at the basement of cineleisure... yum yum. and we thought the restaurant was a little stupid, look at how the plates were uncomfortable with the limited space on our table??!!!

DAVE CHECKING HIMSELF OUT on the mirror beside him. WEI ! CAN YOU NOT BE SO NARCISSISTIC??

so it's 13 sept, kiara's birthday, nevertheless, i went to work after school since i have time and i've completed my assignments. and this guy above is my cousin :) who's currently working with me. LOVE HIM TO THE CORE LAH !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIARA! and she came to see me at work ! wearing a pretty striped dress/halter which costs $87++ OH MY GOD !!

pic unavailable YET.

2007-09-12T20:51:00.001+08:00

farah, i've blogged already, but no pictures so i'm not posting them yet :)

and wei loong is going into tekong tomorrow. he said he's gonna be a man soon. :(

i'll love the boy in him no matter what. i'll love him a man too.

i'm so gonna miss you.

if i can ever get a wish, please grant me this -- allow me to spend more time with him. :)

just a little more time will do ..

*so not in the mood for everything else*

2007-09-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

these days, i'm so busy with rushing homework i can hardly take a breather. monday was like that, after school i had to go work in somerset after 5pm. tuesday was rushing homework as well, met farah at 4 pm and to go ikea to get my tables and lamp and everything need ! it was so fun ! she bought so much things ! me too ! me too ! she bought this treasure box ( toy toy material) and this mirror and a candle lamp to give her room a harry potter look. she's so into harry potter i swear. hahas! and i bought my table, a cloth, and a table lamp for me to study!
meet hairy bottle and the ordeal of the worm!farah bought that treasure chest and the mirror thingy!
evidence of us in IKEA.. haha !
farah and i took 30 mins to wrap this damn table of mine! this is a sign of victory! i'm not fat k, it's just my uniform puffing up ! =/ farah got to learn how to take better picts ! haha!! farah, learn from me !! =p

when i got home, i tried to fix it, but i couldn't cause i thought i had to use a spanner to do my D.I.Y table. in the end i went through ther hassle of going to my dad's shop, asking my cousins if their house got a spanner so i can screw the screw into the blocks of wood to fix up my furniture. so i brought my dad along the various hard ware shops, but they said spanner will damage the screw. so i got light bulbs and a multi 3 pin socket plug instead. BUT TO MY HORROR, MY LIGHT BULB WAS OF A WRONG VOLTAGE! i became so depressed after that. cause i can't see my new lamp light up. before it's fixed.. my NEW table..!
MY FINISHED TABLE ! and that asshole there is my brother whom i had to use hello panda to bribe him in helping me screw the table legs in..
my completed table $35 , with a new lamp $ 5.90 , a new table cloth which costs $6, new socket $9.90 and table leg pads $2.00.. my expenses so high can??

today, i rushed doing my surveys after school and bought a new light bulb for my lamp. i went with hon ren after school. now when finally have time to blog, the picture cant be uploaded.. so shitty right. damn...

2007-09-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

life has been quite smooth sailing, but i hate to come across even minor disputes of which, unfortunately, am going through every other day. it would affect my social life of course, but i'm deeply depressed that the one, whom i depend on so much, is actually the one loading me with all these shit i'm going through everyday. my mood is totally dampened with the sight of you. TOTALLY.

so i've been working throughout the whole of my weekends. met weiloong on 8 sept.

he is still so cute :) his charisma, aura, charm has been preserved so well.

i'm totally smitten. as much as i want to hug him for one last time, it just didn't feel right. he seems to have something on and kai wei and jing scared him off maybe.

i couldnt think of any reasons to make him stay as much as i want to. after we said bye, i regretted. that i didnt speak enough, that i didn't express my actual feelings right there, that i made him feel uncomfortable, that maybe i wasn't whoever he knew anymore. maybe we have changed, but maybe there's some things about him that i still love alot. it dosen't matter to me that he's a little rounder, cause i've expected it. i know he loves all the unhealthy food, he loves to eat. but all these flaws just seemed all right to me. really. it does. he smokes, i hate smokers. but just when i thought how he used to blow it away from my face, i want to be around whenever he lights his cigarette, because i want to feel the sweetness of his action and consideration toward me. he may not be the best boyfriend in the world, but nevertheless, he never realised how his little little details he cared to notice, how meticulous he was, have impacted upon me even until now, i appreciated it so much and so love him for that. i think every other guy should look up to him. he has become a benchmark for my choice over any potential guys.

too bad, so sad.

and that night, as we said goodbye, i kept turning back, hoping to see him another time. but he wasnt anywhere near, atleast, he wasnt visible within my range.

i've got to learn how to let go.

eating at the wanton noodle shop in heeren :)

taking some pics to DESTRESS myself..

even more pictures...

and more....

2007-09-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

i wanted to try this long ago, but it proved such a disappointment, and it made my brother have a chance to laugh big time , really big time , at me. oh my.....

WHOEVER IS AKI HAKALA ?!?!!!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW HIM LAH !!! WTF???

HAHAS!!

please, kill me..... HAHAHAHS !!! even i myself laughed so much... so humiliating right??!!

i shall do a better one next time. KNNN..... HAHAS!!!

2007-09-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

we went to party world with out jia min!! =p
heh, sexy yeah?

oh it's me with the singing diva

jing is a diva wanna be. just looook at her !!

guan yin ma, learnt from jing jing!! hahas! but my hand is kinda wrong, and one look you know it's not the holy water, its my iced lemon tea. hahas!

quick, call IMH.. NOW !!!! RIGHT AWAY !! KAI WEI tried too, but the guan yin ma image just didn't suit her, she ended up looking like a fool.. :p <-- like this..

okay, we got really wild , it's mayday's song... i don't know what, don't ask me..

posers!!

heh, we decided to bully our dearest jia min who was concentrating for her A levels this year, but we decided to put it on our friendster as our primary picture nonetheless to constantly remind jia min how much fun she had missed for the past 2 years... LOL... we arent' that bad, just naughty.. =p

our bill only came out $12 per person for 4 hours. i'd consider that cheap.. :) it's so much better than wasting $3/hour playing LAN... hahas!!

seriously, i hate it when guys play computer, they just won't stop.. at least, stop for me :) then i'll love u to the core heh..

2007-09-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

went to ikea with farah today !!! gotta go ! she bought so many things! she bought eh, 5 small jars, 2 big ones, scissors, rug for her toilet, chopping boards, a pink stool, a red rubbish bin, and, can't remember... LOL.... AND I SAW HUI XIN THERE !!!

i bought 3 small jars, one of which is for kiara, a waste paper basket, a paper box, a multi coloured box for kiara, a box of cookies for nicole, a 6 tier lime green organiser which i used to put my shoe boxes and straws and a duck compartment i hung in my room ( look below) to keep my goodies and tidbits in case there's visitors... hehs. i swear it's so heavy, i need a guy to help... but nonetheless, farah and i did it !! we managed it all on our own. this is what i call girl power !...

we settled for burger king. luckily i stopped working for a year ago and is not so sick of BK's food.hahahs !!!

this is my room... !! i got a snakes and ladder carpet.. the green thing is that organiser thing, 3 boxes of shoes and my straws for handi craft.. and see the big yellow thing? its my pelican/ bird... i got to feed it with the tidbits i buy..... this is supposed to be my laundry room, but i made it my room since my original room is now occupied with my brother and his girlfriend =(

and i gave my elmo my bra.. hahahs !!!

so cool, what i need now is a table... it costs me $39... any samaritans out there? who wanna donate? feel free ya?

2007-09-04T16:51:00.000+08:00

MY KAI WEI IS BACK !!!!

but first, i gotta go hospital. i got an X ray, and i didn't know i had to pass the report and film to the doctor, in the end i waited near 40 mins for nothing. the doc's name was Dr James Loh. he was so formal i swear. we did hand shakes, his hand was 1 and 1/2 times bigger than mine, OMG.. so he explained the whole operation precedure to me, of which i already knew after doing my own research. and i had to do MRI scan which costs me A BLOODY $300 (*&^%$#@ *& ^%

ARGHHHH......... i picked the date on a school day, wednesday when my day is most hectic and no breaks at all. can u imagine that? and i'd have to shiver in extreme cold in lecture theatres, so cold i almost experience frost bites?

of course i rather choose my MRI on that day.. LOL

OH ! OH! AND I WENT TO MEET MY SISTERS!!

kai wei just came back from china, got me chewing gum!!!!! ( my favourite kays...) , a really cute sheep made out of beads hand phone strap and mini mongolian houses, in chinese we call it " MENG GU BAO"...hahas! she slept in there on her trip in china~! so cool..

i love my kai wei !!!!!!!!!!!! oh, my jia min has become so much prettier too ! but she's forever missing, i see her less than 5 times a year. jing jing is still skin and bones... nothing can make her fat seriously.... ahahahs !!!

2007-09-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

this is my hon ren in nerdy pants, mickey mouse t shirt, a big bag pack with a nerdy smile in my house ! :)

had camped in my house from friday night till sunday. hahas!!!

and the table full of books is where i sat, and beside me is an empty table, which was occupied by my dearest friend ginny, who never came back...

hahas ! ginny! purposely make u feel bad! LOL. JUST KIDDING !!!

and i've been told that her maid ran away from her house, that's why she had to rush home. hahs ! she always had that maid crisis. there's this once i went to ginny's house and witnessed her maid putting all the different sizes underwear in ginny's cupboard, and they were everywhere! her maid can't differentiate men's and women's underwear !!!

ginny found out when she saw a supersized panty which obviously belonged to her mother and not her....... she was so shocked i swear, = o <--- like this

then they changed maid, and the new one wasn't any better. the maid threw away a packet of durians costing $30 ++ which is supposed to b made into durian desert for ginny, but the maid thought it was rotten and made the refrigerator stink, so she happily threw it away...

ginny's mother was so angry... -_-'''

there goes ginny's durian desert.

now, another maid running away from home...!! all the maid disaster gotta stop !! poor family.. hahahs...

2007-08-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY !

There's some car boot fair in YJC, what i mean by a car boot sale? it's literally a CAR BOOT sale of 2nd hand merchandise by teachers for fund raising. hahas, my honny bought me a little something. shhhh... it's a secret. hehs. .=p

thereafter, jia min decided not to ,meet me up, her classes ended very late and said she was tired. OH MANS, as usual, i found my own entertainment. to NAT 'S house ! movie marathon !!! watched dead silence, evan almighty( which i slept through more than half of it) and DISTURBIA......... ( go nat house disturb him.. LOL) and throughout, i kept eating non stop, jap cuttle fish, macdonald's fries, kickapoo, peach tea, sprite, marks and spencer's biscuit .... hehs.. i'm so like a pig i swear.

at night, oh my god, i betrayed my best friend just as how i thought someone was a close friend to me betrayed me. KNN..... i'm so angry can...

hon ren is at my house now. ate herbal chicken and we still have a slice of ice cream cake leftovers from my brother's birthday on the 29th. oh, and i didn't wish him at all. LOL, lousy sister right =(

i feel like such a failure at everything. =( maybe i should just buy a zip and sew it onto my mouth. forever don't talk. maybe that'll improve my writing at the same time.. HMMM...

2007-08-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

had literature night today, where there's dramatic plays, and poetry recitation. cool.

went to kiara's house to make cookies ! ard 7pm and had a sumptuous dinner with her parents. got honey garlic marinated chicken wings, fish, fish balls and vegetables. so delicious right?!!

take a closer look! is it realistic ? =) does it loook like those of subway cookies? hehs...went home pretty late today. i thought it was all over between us. but u always had your way of making me smile. though not so frequent nowadays, but i certainly fell into one of your many tricky tricks, which never failed to surprise+shock+amuse me.

anyway, yesterday i had a really bad day. this fugly slut,

this one, is heniously borne, a hedious creature, i wonder why her parents released her out to scare the mass. i thought she was a school janitor at first, and i laughed at her for bringing a La Senza paper bag. HUH! an old lady, with her hormones still raging? maybe she's still trying hard because her husband is impotent. she's so shallow, i was doing my homework in her class, and she ranted, " you arh, do other work in my class, u believe or not later i confiscate then u 'll know" KNN, U FUCKING RELIEF TEACHER, HOPE U BOUGHT YOUR COFFIN, FOR YOUR KIDS AND HUSBAND THAT IS. U ARE SO STUPID, CANT I BE COPYING THINGS ON THE BOARD?? IF U HAVEN'T SEEN PROPERLY DON'T ACCUSE PEOPLE AND SPOIL MY DAY ESPECIALLY.

EFFING slut, she's too ugly to sell her body along geylang, even if she shows herself, nobody wants her. KNNBCCB........ (mailto:*&^%$#@&^%$#@*&^%$#@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U ARE SO DESPERATE, IF U CAN'T GET YOUR STUDENTS TO LISTEN TO YOU, REFLECT ON YOURSELF INSTEAD OF BLAMING IT ON YOUR STUDENTS. i'm positively, definitely innocent. KNN. FUCK. LUCKILY U'RE NOT AS HOT AS TAMMY, NOBODY WANTS YOUR PICTURE I POSTED HERE.

i swear her lack of emphathy and symphathy and all her social skills is gonna cause your downfall beware, you will not come to a good end... cb..... i'm so fucking angry. but thanks to nicole, ruishan, kiara, laura, ginny and everybody who bothered to calm me down. i swear if i wasnt cool enough i could have hurled abuse and throw a chair to help her go to hell faster....BAD MOOD...

--- the end--- *phew

2007-08-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

went out with yixian today, had a coffeeshop talk.. hahas, after so long we're still able converse so comfortably.. hmm, our chemistry hasn't been rubbed off yet. that's a good thing..hehs..

hung around for around 4 hours, then we parted. oh mans, shall meet up another day. :)

and xian zi, come to my house someday when i done up my room! i still lack a table... darn.

hon ren's pants were stolen. damned whoever who had no integrity to exchange his smelly dirty pants which can't zip with hon ren. poor thing. i wish that scumbag meet with unfortunate events to make him learn his lesson in the hard way, allow him to experience his own karma. beware not to let me find out who did this. i'll make that person pay. i can't forgive until he realises his mistake. parasites of our society should be eradicated and banished from here. ****** angry... i am..

gonna make cookies , fake cookies with kiara tomorrow. hahas, with paper clay. think it's gonna be fun. to whoever 's reading my blog, have a nice day!!! bye!

2007-08-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

ask me if my day went well, i'd say NO..

first, i didn't get enough sleep, but i shouldn't complain since i'm responsible for my failure to discipline myself. oh gosh..

then, it was the economics test of which i am unable to do. i'm preparing for a fail grade now..

then it was the rushing of homework unfinished and is due right during our lessons..

i'm so screwed. didn't get to bond with the usual people i hang out with in school...

damned...

2007-08-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

destroying my last hope of reconcillation, i don't want him anymore. but he's trying so hard, and i'm not taking any chances to allow him to step over me. i'm getting myself a life already, i'm moving on... please god, help me to get through all these, i don't want to hurt another.

2007-08-26T13:42:00.000+08:00

on friday, 24 aug, i did a dramatic play. with kai heng, joel, hon ren and eric..

this is me playing the clarinet and eric playing the piano. sorry for all the mistakes, hahas, afterall i haven't touched the instrument for 3 years! means i'm talented... i can still play.. so cool of me right? and kai heng stole all my limelight.. hahhas!!!

and he act girl.. hahas!! oh, and the guy standing in front of the piano is joel, in case u guys don't know.. hahs..

then, this is me, i'm supposed to bleed through me mouth and die while playing the piano because of heart break... the person helping me wipe off the "blood" was kai heng... the fake blood was so disgusting that i puked after tasting the "blood' in my mouth.. yucks... and kai heng named this on you tube" Cancer patient last piece of music" what the hell right? hahas!!!

isn't it cool? LOL

this is eric, he's a genius la!! i wished i could play like him.. =)

2007-08-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

this week it seems like i'm having so many dates out with my different cliques. so fun :)

yesterday, was ginny, zahirah, jeremy, jaclyn (my BFF!) AND nicole.

but first, before i get my share of those fun times, i'll be deprived of them until i have finished serving detention.

can u see how hardworking we are? we're so enjoying ourselves, yeo's chrysanthemum, longans i brought from home, and ginny's nuggets(she finished it).

after detention, we happily pack up and leave for orchard!!. there's a floorball competition and our friends are participating in it (Nicole and zahirah) ;) so cool right ~!

jaclyn and i ! i'm gonna be a substitute for them =)

here comes jeremy in his nike polo t and bermudas and sandals.. along the roads of orchard, yes.. he's got a fuck face right? hahas! ginny, say 'ya'.. hahas..!!! so we set off to heeren's 77th street, where ginny and zahirah did piercing at the top of their ear.. so cool ! zahirah and ginny kept praising nicole afterwards, saying she's got magic hands, because they squeezed her hands and felt as if they had all the strength and courage in the world to do anything.. LOL..so COOL... after we left heeren, it's jac's turn to pierce her 's .. here's my jaclyn, see? look at the silver one, i forgot what's that called..

i missed my jac so much ! =( how i wished we're still in the same class, nevermind, i'm joining Biopolis with you guys this tuesday ! all thanks to jac for asking ms pam ong to allow me go ! u rock !

after we left cine, nicole did something so touching. she saw this old skinny lady, so haggard and inconspicuous, sitting on the kerb, waiting for a good samitarian to save her from hunger and she just got it ! nicole, without thinking, she took her wallet and grabbed a chunk of notes from there and handed it to her, MY GOD, she's so nice, i wouldn't have noticed the old lady if she hadn't done that.. i'm so damn touched by her act of kindness.. aww...

we waved goodbye to jac and nicole, and there's only jeremy, ginny and zahirah.. we walked past takashimaya and saw this couple, making a big commotion. the lady struggled to break free from this guy, supposedly her husband, she tried to run, but she rolled on the floor, trying to run away from his clutch. in the process, even her tudong came out. i felt so disturbed, i wished i could do something to help, but even if i did went up to them, what can i do? all the four of us still discussed on what to do. but it's their own domestic problem, there's limitations to what we are capable of. so we just walked solemnly and felt so disturbed after that, wondering what would happen to them...

thereafter, we went to newton circle to eat !! stupid jeremy claim it's just a 7 and a half minutes walk from far east plaza.... fuck him la.. hahas, on the way, zahirah, ginny kept cursing non stop. i was tired but i didn't complain, so jeremy said i was his only "TRUE FRIEND" HAHAS!!! fuck you jeremy... in school u kept teasing me i got no friend.... hahas, now u no friend.. LOL.... this is what we ate! oyster egg is mine, nasi goreng jeremy's, mee goreng ginny's and zahirah's and fadhil ate seafood soup and alot of chicken wings... he's binging cause he lost in a foul play taekwondo black belt competition today...

zahirah , me and jeremy doing the see no evil , say no evil and hear no evil stunt ! hahas!!

that's e end ! went home, i'm so tired.. i wished i had somebody to lean on. and my foot felt a sharp pain while walking... it's that same old spot, i think i can't delay my op anymore.. =) it's gonna be in november.. oh no.. i hope it dosen't hurt a bit .. i'm scared.. KNN #$%^&*()_$%^&*(.

2007-08-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

i love my clique so much ! i love kiara, laura, ruishan and joshua ! they're so fun !

kay, my economics HOD, got ridiculously poor pronunciation, it's not that i'm shallow or whatever, but it's hard not to laugh at her! hahas! she says 'influence' as 'infrunce' and when she started mocking us, that we should 'fly' to our next destination for tutorials because we're gonna be late for next lessons, instead of saying 'fly' she said 'fry'

so TERRIBLE ! i swear every other word there's a problem with it.. she got to go back to elementary school.

we do all the stupidest things! this is what kiara drew, and so i said, "tell me it's a peanut.." she replied, " no, it's a pile of shit".
-_-''. JC PEOPLE GOT NOTING BETTER TO DO ! i swear.... and this is our dear econs teacher, i mistook her for my school's janitor ! hahas! sorry 'cher !

and joshua 's so funny, this route is a shortcut to yishun MRT station, while we walked past, there's this stench, and given that the path was so uneven, josh commented," i feel like i'm walking in a 3rd world country!"

we're on our way to ikea in tampines ! we're gonna DESTRESS !!! beside me is my cute laura ! i swear she's the first person i'll go to when i'm cold, sleepy or sad. cause she's so nice to hug and she's forever warm ! LAURA I LOVE YOU !

this is josh and kiara!

josh began to throw witty remarks once we reach tampines, he saw this Alano shop, he just said," haha ! this looks so like a This Fashion rip off ! " yeah, it does ! hahas !!!! reached ikea at 4pm, so i began to prepare myself to be a housewife... i'm cooking for my darling !!! potential housewife right? haha ! my girlfriend and i having a romanttic dinner ! tyron's(kiara's bf) so gonna kill me!! hahhas!(drawers and cupboards programmed to open and close with devices)

apparently these two had never seen technology before...... hahas!no josh ! put that down immediately ! hahas! so suggestive right??peek -a - boo !

oh, i'm actually married ! hahas!

kiara baby ! i know u want it! (i'm expecting a call from tyron now, he's gonna so beat me up ! hahas)

we're so photogenic ! oh no!

we look so cute in that baby thing ! haha!

my prince charming...

glorifying the expansiveness, vastness, spaciousness of IKEA!

i want this red table.. it's only $$45 .. get me this !

our maria for the whole day, thanks josh !

okay, as you can see, we bought alot of stuff, i bought 2 jars, i'm gonna give Yi Xian one, cause i remember 3 years ago, she wanted a candy jar.. :) and i bought plastic tumblers too ! and a waste paper basket for kiara's present ! kiara bought jars too, and gift boxes... so many things, maria is helping us sort it out..

we were extremely exhausted, and i thought our enthusiasm established from the start had started to decline, but josh and kiara just had to make me laugh another time !

this was how it went, u know, the shutttle bus service which serves between tampines and IKEA, is apparently FREE-OF-CHARGE. but, to my horror, JOSHUA WENT TO TAP HIS CARD . he didn't notice that that whole bus was sniggering at his stupidity already.

TO MY SECONDARY HORROR, KIARA THOUGHT THERE WAS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE MACHINE AND TAPPED HER CARD ...

HAHA!!! i swear i laughed so loud!!!! so embarrassing ! hahas... can't stand them! they're so the light of my life!

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baby, if only you were here...

2007-08-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

lets start with yesterday. ginny gotta go ! she's so mean but hilarious !

here's how the story goes, Gauwri, this indian girl, upon seeing arisa having the same phone as her, she excitedly says, " eh ! i got the same phone as you ! "

ginny replied sarcastically, " ya, celebrate...."

hahas ! i swear it's so funny.

oh, and i'm so taken aback by the approval i get from my friends, i get praised when i throw vulgarities when i'm really angry and i 'm labelled cute when i curse people. OH MY GOD ! the encouragement gotta stop ! hahas ! all the influence in the wrong way !
day was hectic, i could hardly stop to take my breath. i'm so looking forward to my later part of the afternoon to meet up with ginny, farah and arisa in casurina ! hey it rhymes ! hahas. yuup, and so, here's what we ate, 2 milky, 2 cheese, 2 plaster and eh, a plate of mee goreng. i got so disturbed by the name of the mee goreng, -- mee goreng mutton lembu.

so i asked farah, 'where;'s the mutton?' she replied, no, there's no mutton in the first place, that mutton lembu means 'egg' I'M SO BAD AT GETTING IT, THEN WHY IS IT CALLED MUTTON ? GOTTA GO RIGHT? this is ginny and arisa, there, ginny is the black one.. LOL ! the racist attitude gotta go ! ya, i'm the whiter one, haha !!! right now ! this retarded prata boy is the ambassador of where we ate, so cute right?!

and my friend, jing kai, i was so bored i begged for entertainment. he asks, ' why cant indians eat chocolate?'

i said ' cause it's considered cannibalism' I THOUGHT I WAS SMART ! but he said 'wrong'

OKAY, so the answer was 'cause they'll bite their fingers!'
SO RACIST !

Another one,
4 indians
lying down side by side
cover then with a blanket
what do you get?

i said OTAH... but it's wrong! i tried my luck again, i said satay, but it's wrong !
if u got it right, i salute you, it's
kai kns la stop depriving me of my As says:
kit kat
i laughed my ass off !

boy, i don't want to decipher your philosophies nor profanities about how great my life has been, or whether it's better with or without you, because it's just not.
i just want you back. if only i was better to you back then.

2007-08-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

today is just so happening. :)

firstly, i got this cute friend, laura, she is so innocent she's oblivious to guy-girl relationship kinda stuff right, so when i was pouring my problems to my clique, kiara, ruishan and her, about how romantic whoever and whoever is, laura has to suddenly say super random things like her nutrition bar is so disintegrated.... why is this so and so... SO ANTI CLIMAX ! i swear... but she's so cute cause she haven't been exposed to BGF yet.. i wish i didn't experience the painful heartbreaking sessions too....

okay, so it's lecture time, and once we stepped in, the first qns had to be " what is a discharge.. ?"

hahas, tell me, what was your first opinion when u see this? THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO THINKS THEY STEPPED INTO THE WRONG LECTURE HALL ! THEY THOUGHT IT WAS BIOLOGY ! i have no time for them..it was so funny ! since when discharge became a only-biology term? they go to start reading wikipedia to enhance their knowledge.. HAHA ...

and i got ridiculous friend.. they really made my day better. our teacher asked us how do we change flood risk.. so joshua and reuben joked, " destroy the river, then there'll be no flood !! " then they laughed histerically....... the funny part wasn't with the joke.. it's with their immaturity and laughter :)

heh, it's my birthday ! here's my cake...

NO, WHERE IS MY CAKE ? i'm so gonna cry.. *sniffs* *sniffs*

OKAY, ALRIGHT, I CONFESS, it's not my birthday but jia yu's... there, the girl directly in front of the cake showing a 'V' sign... (not the indian one)... argh... steal my limelight... i'm the one pounding rebecca's head, in case u missed my pretty face. :)

my new boyfriend.. hahas ! totally kidding, he's my family scholar, he's one of the top 5 % academic wise in singapore ! how bout that? love him to the core ! and i'm distrupting him doing homework now, i hate people like this, they made us go out of jobs ! hahas

i swear he's gonna kiss me,

kiss me honey, i won't wash my face for the next few months !

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to be or not to be, that is the question.

i 've experienced my fairy tale, i'm unsatisfied. please lord, grant me one more, and make it be my last. if i get you, you shall be my last.

2007-08-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

"One Year, Six Months" -- yellow card

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

it seems like every love song speaks of my longing for him. u are my special potato..

2007-08-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

in the midst of ultimate darkness, all i wanted is your hand to hold me through given my disability to see, i trust more than i trust anyone else, and i hoped u'll never let go.

he said this was just a phase i'd go through, he dosen't understand that my love for him is not at all superficial. I'm kinda sad that doubted me and just said everything to make me change the way i think.

wei loong, it's not gonna work, i've considered everything before i be truthful with you, it took me months to break this out to you, don't doubt anymore.

i still remembered the cheese nuggets we shared. come to think of it, it's quite disgusting. but if given a chance to share it again, i still would. because you're with me.

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this is my dear arisa eating her beef noodles greedily... YUM YUM !

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arisa, me, chen boon and jacky @ Woodlands Library !

THIS IS SERIOUS BUSINESS EH, DON PRAY PRAY !
did some cam whoring in the toilet.. see our pretty spastic faces! she's my girlfriend...

spotted this really cute guy, i got really distracted, hahas !

look at my girlfriend! she's so greedy ! fish ball noodles, hokkien mee and a big plate of oyster egg ! wait till guys see this, u'll scare them away arisa ! haha..SPOIL YOUR REPUTATION NOW SO U'LL FOREVER BE MY GIRLFRIEND.. WAHAHAHA....

So that was our dinner, chen been and jacky went off at 6pm to be in time for their NATIONAL DAY RALLY by lee hsien loong. WTH ! I HAVE NO TIME FOR LEE HSIEN LOONG ! he can talk about the development of old age facilities for an hour and praise how singapore got through the economic crisis for another hour !

tell u guys a secret, i did obediently sat in front of the tv one day to listen to it. HOW BOUT THAT ? hahas...

the sky's dark again, hope you are doing good now. i wonder, if u did once missed me like how i missed you. i need you to tell me the reason again why u left me, please hurt me one more time, maybe it'll bring me out of my love sickness. say things to hurt me now, i don't wanna share my heart between you and him. otherwise, take me away, let us live in bliss again. if u cant do that, hurt me now......

(I'm Still Not Over You)" -- rihanna

[verse 1]
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

TAKE ME AWAY - life house

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let
me stay here alone

this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
I've seen enough and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

2007-08-18T23:33:00.000+08:00

okay, i already don't feel like blogging but my arisa is so cute i can't stand it but to put it down here.

here's what happened, Wei Loong called me, i panicked, told her that i don't wanna pick up his call, so she suggested this

arisa. says:
pick up and say welcome to mac donalds can i take your order?
arisa. says:
haha
arisa. says:
pretend you are not peiru

i don't know whether to laugh or to call him back. ARISA MAKES ME LAUGH SO MUCH I SWEAR... !

i'm afraid to take your call and to listen to your comforting voice baby, make me hate you, don't make me fall in love with you each time i hear you,

but that's what i always do.

一天的恋人:

蝴蝶的标本, 一如被仔细保存的风声,

我说, 再怎么璀璨的缘份, 也只是那些已经呼嘨而过的我们.

translation:

to my ephemeral lover :

the astonoshing beauty of specimens of butterflies, like a streak of wind that has been preserved so well, like the extraodinary fate between us, is nothing but a thing of the past.

and people, read between the lines, u're not supposed to read it literally,

eg, winds cannot be preserved, so it gives the meaning that my relationship with whoever is not eternal and not lasting.

eg. butterflies are creatures symbolising beauty, but it's a specimen, it's for people to keep, meaning it's just my past memories that was made unforgettable by this special someone.

figure out other meanings on your own :) literature rocks right?!

2007-08-18T18:57:00.000+08:00

today , ginny called me in the morning, when i picked up, only to hear,

" hi slut ! meet you in yishun mrt station at 1.30pm"

what a way to start a conversation ! haha ! ginny is so my bitch :) love her to bits and pieces.

i went for detention for the first time in JC. it didn't suck cause i have ginny.

i saw jaclyn, and i realised i missed her alot, wished i was in their class, JACLYN, I MISSED YOU !

so ginny and i went around, instead of studying, talked bout people, slack around...

whatever..

chatted with patrick online, as usual, asking him for favours, this time, i asked him to help me convert my music file to mp3s... THANKS PATRICK ! and i'm so totally insulted, he says he's becoming a pig like me, to eat, sleep, and shit . -_-'' when was i so terrible? i've got better things to do Pat... =/

chatted with my arisa, she started out like that, much more pleasant than ginny definitely,
arisa. says:
my peipei!!

then, not so pleasant,
arisa. says:
i heard u sent for detention today!

then pleasant again,

arisa. says:
without me
arisa. says:
hmph
arisa. says:
u went on a date with ginny!
arisa. says:
hmph
arisa. says:
jealouss

my arisa's so cute !!!

i wonder what's my Hon ren doing.. i hope he's studying.

"u've been a very good girlfriend, but i think it's better for us to stay as friends."

i'll never forget this sms i received on a august morning,

i'd listen to 'The Reason' all day long,

i ate up to 8 cones of ice cream everyday, because it reminds me of you

i'd go to bedok weekly and take the bus we took,

i'd go back to bk-ss and to sit where we used to sit,

think about the first time we talked to each other,

think about the first kiss you gave me in the cinema,

i'd look at my diary which tells me everything about what we did together,

i'd take 980 to where you played your tennis,

i did everything to relive our moments,

over these years, i'd have nightmares of that very scene of you leaving me,

even till now,

i still cant get over you baby,

please, tell me how can i forget you..

a cut so deep into me, that even gods cant heal.

u are my everything,

I WONDER WHY AM I STILL LIVING,

IN A WORLD WITHOUT YOU.

2007-08-18T01:48:00.000+08:00

went out to bugis on thursday, 16 aug, so kiara, josh and i went to meet denise who's in catholic JC now. we exchanged notes and everything. the lift in central lending library is awesome. people, dont pay escape theme park the 18 bucks... take the cheap lift , just spend $0.45 on transport .... i swear my heart dived with the lift...... so did the others.

so i bought my new memory card from sim lim at only $20. i took kiara around the shops asking for prices, in the end the first guy i asked was the one who offered the least......... (*&^%$#@

waste my time....thanks kiara, she's so sweet. anyway, she didn't bring her phone so she can't contact her parents.. apparently they went out for dinner so she cant contact them... so we went to eat KFC, windowed bugis junction, saw this big plush teddy, took a picture with it and went home. kiara and big teddy

i told her my history... thereafter, i couldn't contain my emotions which still stay embodied my soul; those passions of which i still feel so strongly for, as though it was yesterday......

'my salad days, when i was

green in judgement, cold in blood'

but i never did once regretted. this feelings will never fade, and i don't know how to tell him i love him still. but i never thought it was necessary, because i already had hon ren. and it's always best to just keep our past just as it is, bitter sweet it was, a dream come true for all girls who dreamt for something like that, though he wasn't perfect, his flaws are his appeal ..

even after 3 years of seperation,

he still gives me the butterfly flutters

that night, when i regained my composure, i slept, still thinking bout his love, which didn't belong to me anymore...

2007-08-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

ginny and arisa went overseasduring the 4 day holiday! the difference is that ginny went a little nearer to us, Genting, and arisa went back home to Japan ! okay, it's so funny k, cause arisa went back to japan just to take her exams there, so if she took this exam, even if she failed her H2 japanese, it dosen't matter. sounds cool to me...

so she got us this ! i got a froggy pencil and a coin purse, so cute ! and it's pink...

she got the guys candies ! this one, which looks like chewing gum, is not chewing gum

there's another one, which is candy floss, and dosen't look at all like chewing gum, IS CHEWING GUM. arisa's so cute !

thanks arisa ! muaccckkkks!she's my lesbian partner, so is ginny, i'm supposed to be her chinese slut, because i wear super short skirts in school, sit like a slut and behave like one??!! don't ask me why, i appear like that to her, maybe i really do ... HAHA S!!

gonna go detention with ginny tomorrow...... it sucks, my school sucks, i only had to do 1 detention but my teacher made me do 3, not because she wanted me to... oh my god...... long story, if u're really interested then i'lll tell you.. ask me about it...

2007-08-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm back to blogging !

let's see, in reverse chronological order,

8 august

helped mdm selvi to sell F&N DRINKS in school. it's our national day celebration cum sports meeting. we had a total sales of $700 ++ at $1.20 per can ! kiara and i went around looking for empty cans in the bin and washed them up so that f&n could use it for their christmas project made up of 10,000 cans. laura and ruishan helped to stock up drinks into the styrofoam box. phew.... tiring mans..... my hon ren didn't come school, he claimed he wanted to study. but as usual, his lazy traits usually show up at the wrong time. he never did what he wanted to do. 28 july.

went to casurina with ginny and jeremy. had so much fun ! ate lots of prata, and jeremy likes onion pratas.. oh my god. think his fart will smell big time. thereafter, went back to school and arisa brought me to her apartment ! that condo was two storeyed. so cool! i never knew it existed, i thought only HDB has that. watched 'me you and dupree' that movie was so nice. :) played on her piano, ransacked her room.. walked around, awed by the super cool drumset arisa's sister has.... oh my god..her dinner was rice balls! they actually taught their maids to cook japanese food! so cool right! okay, i'll get a japanese husband soon....

20 july

i love my honren ! okay, recently i love this mini capsule machine so much, and when i couldn't find it anywhere, i actually called up the company, bandai ! so honren went 'capsule machine scouting' with me. from cineleisure, to takashimaya, to isetan, to paragon, to marina, then suntec..... but there were no sight of it... =(

never mind, we finally settled for a meal in this Dreyers' ice cream outlet which serves super nice waffles and with 20 different toppings ! the service was excellent too ! ideal for romancing if you want to... LOL. went home kinda late. anyway, thanks honey !

17 july

today 's so fun, but i'm lazy to blog, so i shall steal from ginny's blog and put it here !

today was fucking hilarious!

I LOVE PEIRU'S GUTS TO THE FUCKING CORE!

sorry for the vulgarities la, but still, she's so darn cute!! anyway,after school, met peiru and i left to meet farah at junction 8, and so the three of us settled to have KFC. so there we were being our-usual-selves bitching about everyone that wakled passed until peiru spotted some campus superstar guy that i think just got eliminated yesterday?

haha! so yea the whole kfc was checking him out and fuck, i didnt know him, but i just stared at him to make him feel popular. but anyhows, he settled down at the table behind us and peiru was so excited and she said, i wanna take photo with him. so she begged me and farah to join in the photo but we didnt want so i just took it for her.so after that we sat down and all, but somehow he was pretty cute and we couldnt get enough of him so farah and peiru started taking shots of him from afar like secretly. well, farah did try to do it secretly, but peiru had no time for the discrete discrete attitude and so she held the camera up so high and took a shot of him.then still, like it wasnt enought, peiru wanted to take last shot with him before we left and she wanted me and farah to be aprt of the picture for memory sake.

so yea but one person had to take the picture and so i did it and farah took the shot.then IT STILL WASNT ENOUGH FOR PEIRU! this time it was farah's turn to take the picture and my turn to be part of it! PEIRU GOTTA GO!but it was really funny, cause peiru was so cute in the midst of all these!but yea, this guy, whatever his name is, is fucking cute ((:and yes, peiru took so many pics with him but when we asked her what his name was, she said she didnt know and had to go home and check!!

NO COMMENTS!

don't mind the vulgarities... that's why i love my ginny so much ! =) time for pictures for this post.. heh..

2007-07-30T16:38:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here this is HON REN'S TEST ..... those who don't know him, don't do it okay??

2007-07-24T16:09:00.001+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

friend test !

2007-07-17T01:37:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

2007-07-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

good things don't happen for nothing,

they usually signals an arrival for something u've least expected,

this is what i call, karma.

something bad happened tonight. i swear i never want to hear it ever again in my life. and not that i'm pessimistic, but i feel that i can never be able to laugh again.

my cries can never be audible to normal people, and what i'm experiencing is not something normal people will go through. it's serious enough to force me to contemplate suicide, but i'm sensible enough to know it's not gonna help the situation. i hope my dad will make a pact with me to jump off the building together though, because he is my only worry.

i hoped i hadn't retained, for time is very important to me. i hope hon ren will reply my messages now though i know he is asleep. i just talked to him. he sounded very nice. he tried to provide a solution to it, it helped. but he hadn't replied. maybe he's gonna shut me off his life from now onwards.

u might wonder what is so serious. try pointing a gun at me but i still won't say. because i think it's a disgrace. unless i feel like sharing. i start to hate myself, for being so superficial. i hate myself that i think everybody in the world is nice. now i realise, it's just the surface. i failed to see the fugly side of humanity, utterly hideous.

i hate money. money makes people change. it alters the benign nature of humans, turning friends to foe, family to enemy. i t impacts greatly on the way people perceive of things. it is the most influencing thing in the world other than yawning. let me reiterate, i hate money.

i don't hate them for saying such hurtful things. they are not wrong. their assumption isn right either. maybe they shouldn't have accuse people. maybe they should have just discussed.

i miss my home, my maid, my rooms, my car, my toys, my piano teacher, my primary school, my life. it's now so out of reach. it's a distant memory fading faster than i imagined.

now i stay in a house, my mom, a storeroom, a toy car, notes, no piano teacher, YJC, great friends but life has no substance.

i can see myself in the near future struggling to put on the extra pounds rather than losing em'. i know what i have to do. i must do.

CONFESSION

2007-07-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

first of all, i would say friday rocks !! :) just because i end school at 12.10pm !!

i really enjoyed myself today, all special thanks to ginny, farah and arisa for making my day. of course, my effin-hilarious sweetheart what i call heart-throb of YJC who always either make me swear at him or make my wanna just pinch his tender cheeks affectionately when he melts my heart by doing those little silly things little boys do.

although i hate to mention it, jeremy did contribute to a little laughter for today. by harmlessly bitching behind my back, tellin' ginny and announcing to the world i call my hon ren so lovingly that it sounded full of sexual innuendos and a trailed off with a seducing quality. THANKS FOR THAT. OH!!! .. and and and .......i also got to laugh at him for not passing his geography, math and blah blah.. he's a perfect target for sadistic people like me. :)

after school was eventful. arisa cancelled off her piano lessons while i stayed in school reading up on novels and listening to what people says. I LOVE MY HON REN SO MUCH ! he's so sweet to skip a portion of his lecture to pass me his jacket when i'm shivering like crazy in the library. OKAY, i admit i made him do that anyway. HAHA !!!

at ard 5pm, ginny, arisa and i set off to bishan to watch a movie with farah, but can you believe it?? THERE'S ONLY 2 MOVIES ON SCREEN. such a loser theatre. so we abolished the plans for watching and so while arisa had jap classes, we couldn't bear to starve our poor stomachs anymore, we settled for a humble meal at Long John's :) lets not mention a weirdo staff there who made sure every other table is spick and span. we joked he should get the cleaner of the year award.

hon ren came some time after. i'm glad he came :)

and we had secret recipe cakes/brownies/lagsagne and chatted and laugh our asses off with plenty of gossips, jeremy monkey business and just plain conversations of which the content may be forgotten but never the moment of entertainment.

going home with farah was a total joy after that arh.. i swear, honren making stupid magic tricks --disappearing of his thumb-- mocking hon ren a phedophile ( get to farah labelling everyone a phedophile nowadays, it's a trend recently i don't know why) by showing a little kid magic tricks, laughing at farah for falling for hr's 1 +1=3 trap and farah's '' you want to see me run? very fast . " witty , uproaring lame statements. HAHAHAA !!!

ALL IN ALL, i just have one confession to make. I'M REALLY THANKFUL I MET THEM. the boisterious ginny, the amusing things farah always never failed to introduce, and arisa's playfulness so influencing, the guys joel, kai heng, zhi qiang and hon ren forever laughing at stupid things which were never funnier than their laughter itself.

i don't know how to express my gratitude towards their graciousness for accepting me into this clique in the first place, thanks for the ten thousand reasons u guys have for accepting me into your life . but then again, being you guys, no reason is needed to be your friend, because i just am :) its just so great to know that.

I LOVE GINNY, FARAH AND ARISA. and a pure platonic love toward kh, zq and joel. true love towards my hon ren.:)

2007-07-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

more updates for activities during hols : still in orchard penthouse. okay, look, i have a dimple on my face at the right. haha ! boyfriend !

my friend of 5 yrs, hui xin !

COUNTRY MANNA GOODNESS ON 28/06/07.

scarecrow.. WHOO HOO ~~

EE... HE'S MUST BE THINKING OF FOOD...

MANNA-LICIOUS ...

okay, have a nice day..

relive moments during the holiday :)

2007-06-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

IN A POSH CONDOMINIUM ALONG ROADS OF ORCHARD..10/06/07 BIRTHDAY GIRL'S HUI XIN ! THIS ANG MOH KID IS CUTE ! HUI XIN'S COUSIN.. HAPPY FAMILY:)
HOW I WISH HE'S MINE.. WAHAHA.. FORGET BOUT THE PINK GUY
SLIGHTLY BEFORE THE HOLIDAYS, HOSTING OF CHINA EXCHANGE TRIP STUDENTS. IN THE NAME OF YJC 28/04/07 ---06/05/07.
A TRIP INSIDE OF S'PORE SPORTS SCHOOLINSIDE THE HOSTEL, HERE'S WHAT IT'S LIKE A LOOK OUTSIDE THE WINDOW.. IN THE GUESTS'S ROOM..WHERE ALL THE CHINA BUDDIES GATHER IN SENTOSA, IN LINE FOR A LUGE RIDE. other pictures are not available but breathtaking sights up the sky tower is still vivid and alive in my head =p. meals for the day is provided. yipee !

MANGING EXAMS

2007-06-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

today's the last day of block tests. i never felt so confident like now. i guess that's because i'm improving. i took some time to understand how my friends were coming along. i read blogs and had miny chats. i realised all of them had the same thing to moan about -- exams. they felt the stress levels intensify, only to go beyond their limits of tolerance. i understood them.

i believe it's the same with everyone, i felt everything last year.

1. when it's time to study, mr procrastination spoils plans

2. -then, ms temptation allures you to amazing cartoons( pokemon rocks !),

-dramas capable of making you cry a river (oh ! channel 8 has a new hit -kinship!) ,

-DOTA (i see my brothers 24/7 on it),

-maple story( outdated -_-'') ,

-MSN, friendster, blog (ahh - ha !),

-new recommendation from a friend to read novels, The Straits Times,

-a little trip to town for shopping(guilty),

-NYDC, Cafecartel, boyfriend/grlfriend, parties( guilty), .

-chit chats over the phone with friends...

3. start to indulge in self deceit -- " oh! i stil have 2 weeks to study, NEVERMIND LAH ! START TOMORROW STILL GOT TIME! "

4. when it comes to the last week, start to panic, complain ! . ... shout the word out loud , " I VERI STRESS ARH !" in an almost terrified-but-pompous tone, like it was a proud thing to be stressed, like it was something to relate yourself to others with ( you know others will be in the same sinking boat).

5. finally here comes the exam, the wretched emotions mounting when u realised more than half the paper is foreign to you, a quarter seems like you've seen it somewhere, one-eighth you know that u can answer it only if you studied for it , another eighth u feel that u are able to do it but weren't sure of the answer of which some might be wrong....

haha !!! but it's easy if you're able to purify your mind ( at least during exam periods), put away all mundane affairs and concentrate, i believe u'll succeed friend! :)

so ginny and zhi qiang, arisa and hon ren and kai heng and kiara and josh and etc....

lets work hard together and walk out of this damned school with straight As in our cert, prior to that thank the teachers who gave you the knowledge.

As for those who gave us a difficult time and doubted your ability and intelligence, hold it right in front of their face, behold their stunned expressions, stare at them as if they were criminals in jail, give em' a smirk and laugh at their folly and shallow minds, then appreciate the moment of triumph u've gained for yourself, take a second look at that teacher now wallowing in his/her mother's comfort, begging for your forgiveness on their knees for overlooking a quality student of astonishing calibre, then try to control your exploding sense of euphoria by pressing your lips tight, even after much discipline you still cant stand it but to let out the repressed feelings be announced to the world that u've done your family, friends and yourself proud.

(P.s hatred for teachers should not be reflected in violent acts, and for people like kai heng who feels like throwing a last ' fuck you ' to any one of them, it's not advisable as u don't know what mr ganesh is capable of)

HAHA !!!! ......... tell me i can be lamer than this... LOL...

lost my touch??

2007-06-22T21:38:00.001+08:00

after what seemed eternity i finally found my instrument to be working again, to allow me continue to get in touch with the world and of course, friends whom i do not meet up with on a daily basis.

thank god my computer is back.

however, i seemed to have lost my touch with the key board, typing absently somethingsomthing. CORN instead of .COM. watching too much of tee-vee and wasting my day on a bed might just be the perfect reason why my brain's getting rusty.

and block test is just 3 days away. boyfriend is not helping alleviate the burden. :(

why not just indulge in some breathtaking pictures i've taken during my abscence for say, 2 months??

maybe not today. after blocks i guess.

mood swings are dreadful.

reality, worse.

expecting the future, WORST.

2007-06-04T13:50:00.000+08:00

Life has been great these days, i enjoy all the food scouting in the middle of the night, only to find oreo mini's and laoker waffles to doctor our growling stomachs.

playing playstation conquering the levels of Crash bash until we vomit blood and laugh till we drop, all the way until 7.30am the next morning, welcoming the very first streaks of sunlight on our still-not-yet sleepy faces and yawning with a horrendous odor resulting from dry, bacteria broken down overnight gaps.

kissing as a sign of our victory to the game, not to forget the traditional way to hi-five each other and smiling throughout the day.

that's for boyfriend part.

meet-ups with kai wei and xian for shopping trips, and jing jing tomorrow for a photo-shoot session would be heartwarming. looking forward to going to a condominium along the roads of orchard for a birthday party to celebrate hui xin's 19th year. getting caught up with gossips and latest movies of johnny depp-- POC. discussing story lines of charlie and the chocolate factory with school mates. celebrating jessica's birthday with koon. i got all the bestest friends in the world.

especially the k box trip with martin, hui qing and zhi xiang. WOW.!!! duper fun can??

please don't be jealous of me

2007-04-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

woke up. wash up. eat breakfast-lunch for free. LOL.

had bubble tea as usual with the remaining tapioca to be bullets shooting at cars we hate most, passers-by and the innocent wall that's too innocently white.

boyfriend had a hair cut, spent a fast 30 mins cutting his hair while i took a stroll in shop and save making sure i'm aware of current prices of household goods. it'll come in handy when i become a housewife at a later phase of my life. its always best to start early. :)

as much as i hate to be a housewife, i'd do anything that'll please my spouse, or rather, my mother-in-law? LOL.

took a short nap. i didn't want to but couldn't help it. wasted 2 hours. wasted 2 hours that was meant for studying together. waking up to The Last Samurai. lousy show. but New Police Story was "WOW !!"

lately had been dreaming about the past. disturbing. i hate it. why? it's a nightmare.

2007-04-13T15:45:00.000+08:00

today we've got our Project Work results !! :) i'm kinda happy, though i'm not in the minority of 24 excellent ones, at least i managed to get a double B in my cert already. lol. way to go peiru ! though it's anpther year in jc, i'm doing pretty fine except for the rushing through of homework and frequent quarrelling triggered by stress. consider the plate tectonic analogy my dear. sorry :)

okay, i saw my name in arisa's blog !! haha.. okay, thanks for the compliment for being a potential housewife. but deep inside i wish i were the career women and my husband taking on the role of a housewife. i don't want to become aunties. i hate the thought of that. hmm... maybe.... heh s... hon ren is eligible to the the man-at-home?? nevermind. (i can already hear him giving me a run down for insulting his masculin ego LOL... )

went swimming yesterday. merely 9 laps. oh well, only had 30 mins then the rain came pouring down real heavily, until i started breathing in rainwater when i surfaced to respirate, only then i decided to come out of the water. waited for boyfriend to pick me up as rain went pitter patter like watermelons drpopping from the sky. ( WATERMELONS? WHAT A HYPERBOLE !! LOL )

tired and worn out. it always felt good feeling weak and allowing myself into your embrace. because i know i have a permanent cot. how many people have the luxury of it? i'm counting my blessings. so should you :) if u don't have it? think of the times where he had once done something sweet. it always helps.

and i managed to chiong through my economics essay. PRAISE ME :)

2007-04-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

blogger sucks.

2007-04-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

friday was heavens, our 4m2 outing. though aliens like vincent and qi yuan was unfamilar, at least i knew their very presence in marsiling sec. hahas.

let the pictures do talking. i'm lazy to type. our outing @ east coast. :)

munching on my subway cookie on the way to east coast !! :) i swear i jumped to the sky when my darling gave me his share. haha. =p

then we stopped at a coffee shop to buy food.

the guy forever mistaken as my boyfriend. i don't want to commit incest i swear. haha.

jing jing and kaiwei. we went cycling altogether . jia min pang seh again !! :(

resting at bedok jetty :)

saw this cute thing on our way back. its promoting skating. i'm more interested in this yellow thing than i am in skating. haha

fire breaking out in marina south steamboat eatery. wow !! :) i've come to realise it's pretty common to have little fires breasking out.

i don't look greedy do it? the heat is getting me so hot and red. haha. i peeled prawn for jing and kai and my pretty cousin. i'm sooooo nice :).

the hunkies with us :) (only those who stayed throughout the day. my poor cousin had lots of time to spare. he quit his job, forgoing a $350 over pay because he was seriously harrassed by a gay manager in bossini. DON'T WORK THERE GUYS. lol.

we didn't go home after east coast outing. we went to eat steamboat from 7 to 9 ++ then went to woodlands civic centre to chill for 2 hours @ macdonalds. all the way from morning 10.30 till midnight 0030. FUN DAY. without my bunny, i did not feel empty but rather, i guess i just have to learn to be independent. JUST IN CASE. :) he's also outside having loads of fun with his classmates. i so love the respect for our privacy among the two of us. way to go !! =) loves my bunny so much !!

2007-04-05T00:55:00.000+08:00

i've suddenly thought of something and i guess i had to take it down here.

here's what came to my mind -- boyfriends who aren't interested in your everyday life is not worth to be with, because if they couldn't be bothered, it just simply means they're not interested.

so my conclusion is, i'm glad for the frequent peeping into my inboxes checking out for my new appointments with old friends, new friends and also, checking out my blog when u remember to; of which u always do. =)

talked to arisa just now and realised we had so much in common. WE CAME FROM THOMSON ROAD BAPTIST KINDERGARTEN. woo hoo ~~ best moments of childhood spent there. and her sister and my brother's friends got some connections. omg omg omgomg.. i just can't stop the bitchy-ness and the high-ness when we talked about it. i shouted and exclaimed in extreme surprise in canteen today. i swear i made people turn their heads. haha !!

sorry for flaring up with you today. and thanks to boyfriend for kope-ing hershey's kisses from your math teacher and i'm sure u liked my little gift from me too.

thanks for the gift from heaven. no doubt, u are the gift. :)

2007-04-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

okay, i know i haven't been regular in blogging. but can't help it.

called off our supposed midnight food scouting pact. Mc coupons no longer valid as of 28 march. no cheapo deals, no macdonalds in the middle of the night. no romatic midnight walks to 888 but replaced by a good night's sleep and relieve from not putting on those extra pounds if i were to consume burgers and fries altogether. to make it worse, vanilla milkshakes that only slim people can afford to binge on.

that's for saturday night.

got a new love -- watching "my lovely samsoon" a korean serial that made me go wailing and weeping and grieving. i've chiong-ed all of it within 3 days. not very impressive but i would call it an achievement for i had forgone homework and revision during this weekend. OF WHICH I SHOULD NOT BE DOING SO.

:) i see the effort in waking up early just to be in time for train and a precious walk with me to school. appreciated. LOVES.

2007-03-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

hormonal activity has been a little aggressive nowadays, bestowing me with unsightly zits forming like dormant volcanoes erupting consecutively one after another.

how i hate pimpledays.

that's why i'm not taking photos at the moment for the fear that i, myself might be frightened like the effects of the new anti-smoking advertisement. i don't want complaints from my ardent readers.

my day has been stagnant, but i did not skip lectures today. sat with BFF jaclyn in geog class. she didn't do homework !!! HAHA !!! BAD GIRL !! U SO HAD TO STAND THROUGHOUT THE LESSON.. POOR THING ! emailed my buddy from china with hon ren in the computer lab today. he's totally hilarious la ! because he's just bad at chinese character inputing at the computer. CUTE LA ! -- gem from heaven.

after school went to northpoint to meet up with farahand jeslyn. get to us and nursery/primary school attitude. fancy us getting overly excited looking at barbie dolls/sesame street hand-puppet/spongebob letters/science kits/uno cards/monopoly/jenga/chess..................didn't get to see ginny though. sad case.

too bad i got to go choir for practise. i'm glad i had company throughout the tortuous 3 hour thing. and i had to come out of the place to see my favourite face ! Hon Rennnnnnnn !!!!!!

there we go mac-dwelling for out dinner eat-out, though mummy had cooked curry for tonight's dinner. but i shall be extravagrant to spend a little more time with you. I GOT MONEY WAD......... !!

(pei ru stop being cocky !!! @#$%^&*^%$#@!@#$%^)

so what will happend to chicken curry today? means brother bring girlfriend home to finish food up :) no worries !

( ya ya attitude right now)...

i've been conceited recently, and it's purely self confidence. too much of it though. but i'm not gonna complain. hehs. at least it does not affect me much. =p

2007-03-29T14:46:00.000+08:00

i'm good with my life and everything, i don't need people to subtly hint things getting better for themselves. i don't care. and i don't bother to. it just makes u retarded as a being and i think your actions are repulsive rather than impulsive. though i think both fit the bill about you. let's just start with the irksome attitude and expression on your sheep's clothing. u're a monster deep underneath. u're a disguised fiend, u're the phantom of the opera.

and this is a note for guilty(if u think u are):

if u think that that FIENd, IS SO INNOCENT, SO NICE, so everything u think is real, i would not stop you from being so superficial and shallow. =) maybe i'll just get on with my life.

---real irritated---

2007-03-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

rantings of a grieved girl

sometimes we're good, sometimes we're bad.

sometimes u're repentant, sometimes u're just stubbornly slothful, indifferent, and

forever procrastinating.

i am putting in 101 % of effort in changing u to a better being,

apparently it's not appreciated. maybe u do but i don't see it.

i see you checking out another her.

i am green with jealousy.

jealousy an emotion i bother not to obscure. for i want it to seem prominent that i care.

all in all, i just have a question, do you really have feelings for me?

2007-03-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

day started off on a bad note. and i wonder how long this unfortunate curse is gonna uplift it's mentally challenging spells.

first, there were no buses coming my way, despite my early arrival at the bustop only to find a slight jamming at the causeway. i'm LATE therefore. scurried to school with fear of meeting the big character, GANESH, as my skirt is not of appropriate length. taking my time to make sure i arrive school after G has left the podium, and is out of sight. yes i made it, but another incident bode ill.

two, betrayal from FAT BITCH ELIZABETH. need i make myself more clear? a day on drowsy pills had invited unecessary wastage of time having to see teacher about sleeping in choir practise. my fault for not clearing the air. but then again, i was TOO WEAK to do so. BRAINLESS COMPLAIN QUEEN, u hypocrite, NO WONDER U'RE LABELLED A

FAT BITCH. it's RIGHTFULLY YOURS.

three, constant neglience. i won't bother to elaborate further. claims about going home early to study for mock chemistry SPA, ended up in a pack of lies -- loitering around in northpoint, ended up sleeping soundly in bed. EVEN efforts to wake u up from your sleepy state turned to naught because of your 99.99 % reluctance to improve yourself. explanations? u've been robbed completely of that. I would hear nothing. NOTHING FROM YOU IS VALID. where is the change in you as promised?

four, all the problems were aggravated as i thought of yesterdays, gravational pull of emotions were so great, tugging so ferociously at my heart strings. how i want to be forever fifteen, when i could enjoy my golden teenage years without having to face the big 'O's. and enjoy my company of four, jia min, jing jing and kai wei. my best buddies accompanied by true friendship that woud last for a lifetime.

then again, if my life was stagnant at that, i would'nt have the chance to meet martin, hui qing, ginny and gang, jaclyn, and those who made a difference in my school life. or even my boy, who is the best thing that can happen to me in my stay in YJC though there were many occasions when i was agitated, still, i could not deny my best moments were spent with him.

my valentine's celebrations, new year celebrations, and many more celebrations which might take place in time to come, will become special not because of the occasion itself, but by the people. Oh, am i still gonna complain? i hope not :)

2007-03-26T01:58:00.000+08:00

thanks to jing for introducing it, i've downloaded PICASA. collaging pictures is super fun. let's see.

what fun is it to have pictures by itself? collaging just makes events in a day look more consolidated and belonging... amazing! i would say. too bad PHOTOSHOP is out of reach.

lets just make do
:)

waiting for boyfriend to get himself done tidying while i wait and making full use of time doing tutorials lateinthenight. 2.30am i shall call. not to check up but to enjoy another 5 mins of quality time. :)

am i blessed or am i blessed? no qualms bout it .

i've just been told LOL meant not only 'laugh out loud' but also,

'LOTS OF LOVE'.

-LOL

2007-03-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

day had been easy. beautiful timetable, making gratifying music in the auditorium with josh and kiara with our mediocre skills.

but i feel depreciated. i thought i AM special, but it just suck feeling like ordinary, conventional toilet paper which even most people of lower social classes are able to afford. i want to feel like high class soft, rose printed toilet paper. only people who appreciates and have the ability to afford can have me. my price is simple, let me state : love, concern and sincerity and most importantly, appreciation. if that's too much to ask for, please fuck off.

and my toilet analogy sucked. i know it. :)

feeling unnoteworthy, might just explain my cranky demeanor for today. solely for today i hope.

cracking jokes over the lunch table with kaiheng managed to lift up spirits, but after much laughing, i was back to SQUARE ONE.

i am wrathful, and you have just incurred it.

2007-03-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

this was what teacher showed us in a talk for assembly today. lame shit. hahas.

went to town after school with jeslyn and arisa. saw doraemon guitars !! absolutely cute la !

saw this cute thing on the streets, wonder what it is??

it's a sing post mail box !!!

hon ren and zhi qiang were boasting about watching 300 !! :( i can't watch yet. ITZ JUST A MATTER OF TIME.

I'M BACK IN PRIMARY SCHOOL !! ( in marina square)

then arisa, hon ren and i went for carl's jr craze !! :) cool !!
went millenia walk..

hon ren got the GOLDEN TICKET from his first WONKA BAR !!! congrats !! hahas!! look at his sickening face?? i shall have a wonka bar too !

secretly bought honren a wonka bar, but he found out. damn it.. :( totally thwarted my suprise plans. i should have guessed his head was way above the candy racks looking toward my direction when i'm attepmting a stealth-payment; unlike me, i could barely look over the shelves. no wonder he knew about it -- because i THOUGHT he could see me IF i couldnt see him. DARN !

in the end, i had him to act ignorant. so he just went, " u're up to something i don't know what. " and " can i buy a wonka bar before we leave?" and i had to act like a baddie, not allowing him have his wonka bar. LOL ! hilarious !

2007-03-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

swensons yesterday was salmon baked rice, fish baked rice and chocolate indulgence in chilled form -- ice cream !! . walked around bugis street. eating hawker centre food -- claypot rice, carrot cake, duck rice, ice jelly and grass jelly drink makes me forget those occassional tiffs in the very morning resulted because of a moment of impatience.

gratified that u made so much effort to make sure we're alright. made it a point not to pinpoint but to improve together. she is not an obstacle.=)

pure justification of us. :) loves.

can you feel e love tonight?

2007-03-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

went to watch dance works !! it was awesome. jaclyn was the third group. she did great! thumbs up! together with farah, jeremy and zahirah, we awed and critiqued the dancers, went to toyrus, ate at long john's for 2 hours because farah was a slow eatern and we were so on the dog having menstruation fact, of which many jokes we came up with minutes later . jaclyn joined later and shopped for farah's tights, looked around for a suitable shoe for me but failed to.

in the night went to borders to look around. i was stuck at the stationary corner busying being facinated with the array of colourful notebooks and boxes. missing hr, hoping he would come for the whole day.

wanted to eat mac donalds but i fell asleep in your warm embrace. too late for anything but fried rice, fish and chips and rojak near the neighbourhood. i felt happy when u are happy.

love it when our pupils just meet and say nothing to each other, letting time freeze right then, living in our own world of silence with gallons of love floating around, not being able to see it but feeling its presence would suffice. thank you, my couch potato.

it was an accident i understand. and even in the days to come, there would be more and more accidents like this. all we need is a little bit more of communication and understanding, giving and taking. whatever it is, i was so touched you singing to me that song. i appreciate your piggyback efforts to pacify.

you are a god sent jewel. i'm alice-in-wonderland.

farah's last day

2007-03-09T09:58:00.000+08:00

went to school late today, for the fear i had to go to serimbun camp by force. first thing i met up with the new 128 class people. cool. they were so nice. then went around with ginny and farah, opening of farah's present, she was so touched she cried. her goong soundtrack, a optician mug, a doraemon pencil. :) good luck in optometry girl!

get to kai heng and meddling around with the mini guitar model. just look at how 'rock' the cat has become after being touched up on its fur. boys, *shakes head*

then we waited so long for hr to finish his english essay. before we go to town to collect ginny's handphone. yay !! so fun !! but in the meantime, we went to mc donalds with cynthia and kaiheng to play poker. :) so fun.

in wisma, chat, played with playstation in the sony's showroom, PSP, after half an hour or so, finally it was ginny's turn ! woohoo ~~

rushed back to school only to find YJC'S jam and hop a failure. sad. poorthing.the place was merely an airconditioned big and dark room with a few pathetic groups of people forming circles dancing in their cliques with OGLs on stage having the time of their lives hopping around childishly throwing pices of shreded paper on top of each other , waving 2 or three lightsticks, thinking that it would liven up the atmosphere but it did not. i was so disappointed.

went to prata house. saw joel on the way. invited him there. i ate sardine murtabak and cheese prata. hr ate egg onion and plain. joel ate double egg and chocolate prata. hahas. cheap la ! better than casurina ! lol... kai hengt and cynthia came some time after. drank free soft drinks, played poker. winning $2.50 from joel and losing $2.40 to kai heng and kaiheng losing $1.50 to joel. me and hr still won 10 cents. haha!i had so much fun. so did hr. :) thank you.

2007-03-08T12:14:00.000+08:00

yeah !! i'm a slacker OGL !! cam whore gotta stop ! martin who never manage to get a proper face. he never knew what i meant by a proper face. maybe because "proper face" is not registered in his dictionary. it was a made-up anyway. his features are forever twisted and distorted. phew. took some time to get my proper face i expected. ginny, arisa. jeslyn and others wen t town. i also wanna go ! but too bad, can't, tied down by duties of which i did not perform.

irritated with bitches who act like they are some big shots in school. i'm not feeling your authority. i'm not gonna respect 'action' people.

2007-03-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

okay, supposed to go orchard with jeslyn and arisa. however over enjoying ourselves in Casurina has forced us to abort plans and go ahead with fun.

members: jeslyn, arisa, hon ren, joel, zhi qiang and i !!

we're damn big eaters.

joel: double egg thosai + plaster + milo dino

i : egg cheese + shared sardine murtabak + teh tarik

jeslyn : shared sardine murtabak + plain + egg onion +teh tarik

arisa : cheese murtabak + milky

zhi qiang : forgot !! haha

hon ren: plain + egg onion + cheese + teh cino

bottom line is, we ate alot !! hahas... and not forgetting jokes over the table. what kai heng play digimon under the table. if u don't get it it's okay, maybe it's too stupid only we would understand. haha.

then it was time to go orchard !! bought my mango top and my shorts !! yipee !!! ate an ice kachang on a cold day. KEWL..

peiru the bunny and hr the elf !! hahas. random disguise in spot light, searching for ourselves an alternate identity we are cute in. but i think my attempt was a disaster. more like a erm... casino bunny girl?? haha... nevermind, it was fun. hilarious day.

cried on the streets. don't ask why. emotional tendency down here.

2007-03-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

hugged, standing by the window,

looking at the scarlet sky, hues of blended red, orange and purple and blue.

looking at people like ants sprawling on the ground several floors down.

looking at buses go by.

hearing the sounds of nature.

it was romantic.

warmth, love and silent communication going on.

and it just went on forever.

it will. =)

2007-03-03T18:58:00.000+08:00

serimbun campsite in lim chu kang... for the purpose of orientation for OglS...

Sophie and i !kiara, my new friend in my new class.. she's so cute !!

toilets there don't stink but still, it's disgusting..

preparing for orientation for the new intake, however dosappointed that we wen there and wasted a few hours of time, primarily because activities weren't planned beforehand and boring of shouting "YJ oei" for a thousand times, especially when nobody cares to reply her.

no cheers, no motivation, no mood. we just need a bed. to sleep on of course.

a day wasted was explained as " the test of perserverance" My toes. my leg, my foot !

nevermind about my unfortunate experience over there. i managed to have a little bit of fun talking to wendy, sophie and kiara though. i should have brought picnic food to share with them. thanks sophie though, for being so sweet to share with me her ham sandwich and biscuits, otherwise i would have died of starvation and boredom.

most importantly, i would be haunted by guilt. guilt of deleting pictures from hon ren's phone. pictures of memorable value. value from the experiences and times that cannot be retrieved anymore. times that had been washed down history a few months ago. a few months ago where things had not been the same. when things had been less complicated and enjoyable.

bottom line is, i had taken away these from him. i had just taken 20 days off his memories-- the china pictures.

i had never been so sorry for this long. he said it was okay. he took it so lightly. i wont believe. if it were me, i would have killed someone....

2007-02-28T01:30:00.000+08:00

what a JC girl would do if she was super duper bored...

joel was taking it so easy.. hahas !!! comical la !!

celebrated joel's birthday together with arisa's. super fun. joined new class and teachers were quite okay. hmm.. i can't give bad impressions anymore. hahas... must be a studious, lovable student ! =p

slept and lazed around in bed. wasn't productive.. hahas.. my goeo project needs to be handed in badly.